DON'T QUIT

When things go wrong,

as there sometimes will,

When the road you are trudging,

seems all up hill,

When the funds are low

and the debts are high,

and you want to smile

but you have to sigh.

When care is pressing

you down a bit,

Rest if you must but

don't you quit.

Life is queer

with it's twist and turn,

As everyone of us

sometimes learn,

and many a failure

turns about,

when he might have worn

had he stuck it out.

Don't give up though

the pace seems slow,

You may have succeed

with another blow.

Success is failure

turned inside out,

The silver tint of

the clouds of doubt,

and you never can tell

how close you are.

It may be near

when it seems so far,

So stick to the five

when you are hardest,

It is when things

seems worse,

THAT YOU MUST NOT QUIT !!

FAVOURITE SONGS

Papa Roach - Scars Lyrics [Chorus:]

I tear my heart open, I sew myself shut

My weakness is that I care too much

My scars remind me that the past is real

I tear my heart open just to feel

Drunk and I'm feeling down

And I just wanna be alone

I'm pissed cause you came around

Why don't you just go home

Cause you channel all your pain

And I can't help you fix yourself

Your making me insane

All I can say is

[Chorus]

I tried to help you once

A kiss will only vise

I saw you going down

But you never realized

That your drowning in the water

So I offered you my hand

Compassions in my nature

Tonight is our last dance

[Chorus]

I'm drunk and I'm feeling down

And I just wanna be alone

You shouldn't ever came around

Why don't you just go home?

Cause your drowning in the water

And I tried to grab your hand

And I left my heart open

But you didn't understand

But you didn't understand

You fix yourself

I can't help you fix yourself

But at least I can say I tried

I'm sorry but I gotta move on with my own life

I can't help you fix yourself

But at least I can say I tried

I'm sorry

but I gotta move on with my own life

[Chorus x2]

Song: Mocking Bird

[ Intro ]

YeahI know sometimes things

might not always make sense to you right now

But hey, what daddy always tell you?

Straighten up little soldier

Stiffen up that upper lip

What'chu crying about?

You got me..

[ Verse 1 ]

Hailie, I know you miss your mom

And I know you miss your dad

when I’m gone

But I’m trying to give you the life that I never had

I can see you’re sad

Even when you smile

Even when you laugh

I can see it in your eyes

Deep inside, you wanna cry

Cuz you’re scaredI ain’t there?

Daddy’s with you in your prayers

No more crying

Wipe them tears

Daddy’s here

No more nightmares

We gonna pull together through it

We gon’ do it

Laini, uncle’s crazy ain’t he?

Yeah but he loves you girl and you better know it

We’re all we got in this world

When it spins When it swirls

When it whirls When it twirls

Two little beautiful girls

Looking puzzled, in a daze

I know it’s confusing you

Daddy’s always on the move

Mama’s always on the news

I try to keep you sheltered from it

But somehow it seems,

the harder that I try to do that

the more it backfires on me

All the things, growing up

As daddy that he had to see

Daddy don’t want you to see

But you see just as much as me (to see?)

That we did not plan it to be this way

You’re mother and me

But things have got so bad between us

I don’t see us ever beingTogether ever again

Like we used to be when was teenagers

But then of coarse

Everything always happens for a reason

I guess it was never meant to be

But it’s just something

We have no control over

And that’s what destiny is

But no more worries

Rest your head and go to sleep

Maybe one day we’ll wake up

And this will all just be a dream

[ Chorus ]

Now hush little baby don’t you cry

Everythings gonna be alright

Stiffen that upper lip up little lady

I told ya, daddy’s here to hold ya

Through the night

I know mommy’s not here right now

and we don’t know why

We feel how we feel inside

It may seem a little crazy, pretty baby

But I promise, Mama’s gonna be alright

[ Verse 2 ]

It’s funny

I remember back one year

when daddy had no money

Mommy wrapped the Christamas presents up

and stuck them under the tree

and said some of them were from me

Cos daddy couldn’t buy ‘em

I’ll never forget that Christmas

I sat up the whole night cryin’

Cuz daddy felt like a bum

See dadday had a job

But his job was to keep the food on the table

for you and mom

And at the time every house that we lived in

Either kept getting broken into

and robbed or shot up on the block

And your mom, was saving money

For you in a jar trying to start a piggy bank for you

So you can go to college

Almost had a thousand dollars

Till someone broke in and stole it

And I know it hurt so bad it broke your mama’s heart

And it seemed like everything was just starting to fall apart

Mom and dads was arguing a lot

So mama moved back on the Chalmers

and the flatOne bedroom apartment

And dad moved back to the other side of 8 mile on Novarra

And that’s when daddy went to California with his CD

And met Dr. Dre and flew you and Mama out to see me

But daddy had to work

You and mama had to leave me

Then you started seeing daddy on the TV

And mama didn’t like it

And you and Laini were too young to understand it

Papa was a rolling stone

mama developed a habit and

it all happened too fast for either one of us to grab it

I’m just sorry you were there and had to witness it first hand

Cuz all I ever wanted to do was just make you proud

Now I’m sittin’ in this empty house, just reminiscin’

Looking at your baby pictures it just trips me out

To see how much you both have grown

It’s almost like your sisters now

Wow, I guess you pretty much are

And daddy’s still here

Laini I’m talking to you too

Daddy’s still hereI like the sound of that, yeah

It’s got a ring to it, don’t it?

Shhh, mama’s only gone for the moment

[ Chorus ]

Now hush little baby don’t you cry

Everythings gonna be alright

Stiffen that upper lip up little lady

I told ya daddy’s here to hold ya

Through the night

I know mommy’s not here right now

and we don’t know why

We feel how we feel inside

It may seem a little crazy pretty baby

But I promise

Mama’s gonna be alright

[ Outro]

And if you ask me to,

Daddy’s gonna buy you a mocking bird

I’ma give you the world

I’ma buy a diamond ring for you

I’ma sing for you,

I’ll do anything for you to see you smile

And if the mockingbird don’t sing

and the ring don’t shine

I’ma break that birdy’s neck

I’ll go back to the Jeweler who sold it to ya

And make him eat every karat

Don’t fuck wit dad.haha

back to holidays

haha, tak sangka that my mother was just laughing out when i told her that i appeared in the magazine besides ct nurhaliza. my family which includes my sisters n my brother in-laws were really laughing out loud. so u see the going to klia become a non- issue at all. except my dad who were quite not as excited as the rest, i guess to him i would still be his little daughter that he worries. even my sisters who are practically mothers now get the same worried face frm my father if they come back late frm work. i don't blame him, after all there are just too many bad ppl nowdays. they celebrated my belated birhtday tonight. funny as it is, but at this age, i am not that eager to celebrate birthdays anymore, just so long as they remember me in their prayers, but come to think of it, their presents shud not go to waste either,hehe.. finally, the internet at home is working. it wud have been really tormenting for me as i spent half of my life online, i wouldn't know what to do if there wasn't any good shows on tv, this is where i resort to and if it was not working??? but thankfully it is. felt good just now talking to lia, it has been quite some time since we had a proper chat..and then my ex gave me a call. felt really bad, did something to hurt his feeling. but i never intended it. why is it so hard to be friends when everything is over between u and him?? i mean i really thought he has moved on, he even has a new girlfriend so why is he still hoping for me??arghh..

Mar mak kawin! mar nak kawin yea yea. macam aku plak yg nak kawin,haha tak sabar nak tunggu cuti ni, byk benda nak buat. nak kuar gan all my friends yg dah lama tak jumpa. zura, maznifa, jasmin and sesape lagi la. then my family is gonna make a birthday party for me. wee, can't wait, combine with my nieces nye. tak sangka dah besar dah dua2. alysya nak masuk 2thn and nadiah nak masuk setahun. tak lama lagi kaklong aku plak nak bsalin. wow, tambah family member lagila nampaknya. pastu nak teman mar try baju kawin die, nak gi buat spa la...obviously for the wedding preparations..best nye can't wait.. pastu nak kuar tgk wayang hopefully jadik dgn a certain bestfriend of mine, baraq. die ni nak dgr gossip aku je, after all he holds the tittle gossip king.tp dah jatuh darjat sket, a bit outdated,haha. kena amik sources dr aku plak. pastu nak buat attachment kat shooklin, one building with my kakngah nye office. kakngah here i come, let's have lunch everyday at starbucks. also, not to forget the fun nights that i had aritu. sem ni nye exam mmg tak insaf lgsg, bukan dah nak naik final year, makin insaf tp makin selamba. ari tu, esok nak paper company,mlm tu gi anta fad, asma n the rest to klia. siap tunggu alexis lagi sampai dah lambat nak balik uia. nasib baik pak guard baik(kat main gate) n nak masuk kolej, pak guard sorg 2 ttido.mlm tu gakla masuk tv n mag hai coz jumpa ct.. then ari tu abis je paper usul fiqh, gi makan kat jj,padahal esok tu paper eps bturut. oh, yeah sblm gi klia tu dah gi teman mar jumpa jimmy nak pass gamba,mlm gak. then after je paper eps, mlm tu terus bawak mar,nik n nadia gi tgk short film kat help institute. best la, dapat jumpa james lee(the director of beautiful washing machine) yg bakal ditayangkan di cinemas.ala, klau tak tau, die yg byk menang award kat international film festivals. comel gak la die. then borak plak gan plakon sepet,linus. die jadi ah keong dlm cite sepet. banyakla gossip yg dikutip, like the real ending of sepet. dierg shoot tp tak tunjuk.sampai ada tiga ending.and the behind scenes of sepet nye shooting.check out his blog at my list of friends. pastu sblm tu, james lee who is practically married to his camera, asyik dok amik muka aku je. dahla kitaorg duduk depan skali gan smuanya gang aku pakai tudung, tetibe aku plak asyik makan biskut, share gan alexis. pastu baru aku tau, dierg kenal siapa alexis. die yg celebrity malam tu. aku plak blur. rupanya die guest of honour. yela, international film critic la katakan. so gonna miss them, zaki n gita frm indonesia n alexis frm phillipines.bile la nak buat reunion camp ni??m'sian team pun susah nak jumpa. pastu dahla dierg nak buat entry baru of short film for the new festivals. tajuk is about tudung. dahla sblm tu, aku dah mmg teringin nak buat short-film, inspired by those that i have watched. tetibe entry punya theme same gan idea aku. aku nak buat pasal the daily lives of a person who wears tudung. who have desires and needs like others. satu scene aku bayangkan, kitaorg clubbing tp dlm bilik, haha. asma, that goes out to u. tp kena hire org yg tak pakai tudung la. tp tak tau sape yg nak shootkan. p/s: yg best tu jumpa ada this guy yg became the mc that night, very cute n looks so familiar. he joined us when we talked with linus about sepet, pastu linus siap promote die lg cakap die single. trus blush,haha. tp kitarg smua buat don't know coz smua nak sibuk dgr ending sepet so kitarg angguk n trus n so linus, the rest?? sian fahmi tu kena ignore. pastu tetibe aku kate kat nadia, myesal aku tak mintak no dia,tp i console myself by saying that i am coming this weekend 4 da phillipines nye short-film, i'm sure he'll be there. hope he's still single by then. pastu baru tau smlm yg die host rancangan dlm tv short-cuts or something on films, produced by james lee. patutla muka mcm familiar sgt. apalagi, lepas ni definitely nak kena jumpa die lagi.. pastu sedih dapat tau, acc to linus plakon jason dlm sepet tu baik sgt, tak penah minum,mrokok n tak penah ada galfriend. tetibe skang baru ada galfriend, melayu plak tu..melalak lah kitaorg..

UPDATES

sorila dah lama tak update. i apologized to those who have been waiting for any new news frm me. well, akhirnya i'm free. free frm all exams. i really pray that i will have better results this time around.amin. where to begin, i'm sure this will definitely be a long one. balik dari camp in indonesia, mar n ira was still having the camp blues and i was movin on fast. balik je, my job awaits me that is the counsellor for my friends, and as having the the tittle of gossip queen, kenala keep up to date with all that was happening, nanti hilang tittle plak,haha. then i got carried away with all the pressure of catching-up n going to classes. tak sedar tetibe, dah nak exam. then here i am updating u on my life. entahla tak tau ape nak tulis though many things have happened to me. the best part is that sejak taun lepas asyik jumpa artis, n now i have a collection of their pictures with me. first i met zizan, in front of uia, my god..he was my long term crush, how cud i not talk to him. we(my friends n i n not with zizan)went back to my room to get my camera. after meeting him, not long after that, i met anuar zain at the shah alam mall. die beli lenses n i was doing my shopping spree. dgn muka tebalnya gi la amik kamera in the car n ask his friends to take pictureof me with him.tp kawan2 die lg cute. myesal plak tak amik gamba gan dierg, dahla siap offer diri, tp masa tu jual mahal,konon. star-struck la katakan. and guess what?? i did the stupidest thing i said to him, congratulations if u are going to get married. am i crazy or what?? then a month later, we were at the klia to fly to indonesia for the camp, n i met farah, fitri, kaer, edlin, zarina, zahid, anding of af2. i am a big fan of farah n fitri, and this was like a dream come true.so ape lagi amik gamba gan diergla. and recently,nadia, mitch and i went to klia to sent off our friends who were going to d.c(they are in the finals.they defeated at least 106 law schools around the world, u do us proud jessupers!!) n it juz so happens that ct nurhaliza was going to london as well on the very same night. n ape lagi, biasala me want to take every oportunity that i can to be in the limelight, thus we went to see them which was aizuddin, asma, boy and i.at first, i was lazy to coz i did not have any camera with me but asma was practically waving hers in front of my face, then ape lagi makin lajula melangkah. asma n i had our own agenda. we were only interested wif fadzley which was wif ct but aizuddin and boy are totally hooked on ct.so the four of us made our way thru'. tak sangka plak die tgh buat press conference plak masa tu. n i was standing directly behind all the reporters that were interviewing her.then this english couple came and asked us whether that was ct nurhaliza. we promoted her though we did not fancy her at all, me n asma. pastu asma bile jumpa english ppl, mulala accent british die kuar. kuat betul kiteorg gelak sampai fadzley pun asyik tgk kiterg je gan jelingan yg tajam.then we gossiped further which irritated fadzley more,haha. yelah, ct was talking very ayu one, like she cannot speak louder so the reporters had trouble listening to her i guess.well, me n asma will alwiz be us though we were on national tv.loud n not ashamed.. then asma was taking pictures with her new camera(her dad gave it to her as a present for going to dc), and it flashed directly at ct, dah la amik sampai 5 to 6 kali. org lain smua amik guna camera fon, mane ada flash, lagila fadzley bengang. then suddenly, i saw the cameras(melodi n rtm) recording my picture n i turned my back n faced aizuddin. and he was asking apsal u pusing kat i? i said " my mom is not suposed to know i'm here"( we were having exams the very next day)n the mat salleh replied "ur mum doesn't know u're here n u are on national news n tv?" n i said " i know" with a worried face. there goes.. finally we got to take a picture with fadzley, very sombong..benci die..then amik gamba ct sorg. asma took directly in front of her face.asma suruh die posing for her n ct did n she snapped. i said to asma " i think u nearly blinded her with ur flash" and we both just laughed. b4 that,all of us including the boys pun salam je die ek. konon sebelum tu mintak izin gan aku tetibe blm bg approval dah salam dah, siap tak nak cuci tangn pastu. what a nite! then this morning my friend gave me a call, ckp my face was in the magazine 'hai' n i was thinking bile plak hai interview aku pasal camp ni, NST adala, n i really thought it was about the camp, mind u m'sian team came out in the newspaper in oriental daily 5 pages, i haven't had the chance to view it yet, n my pic was also in the malay mail pun tak tau(pertaining to the camp)so i thought this was my chance to keep it.tetibe die tanya "kau jumpa ct ke?" and i was like oh,no me with ct...they must think now i am a big fan of hers..too bad..at least 15 min of fame,haha

life is sooo busy

emm...don't really know where to start. actually, life is not that busy as before but somehow, i have less hours in a day to finish anything that i want to do. maybe the real reason is because of the fateful tsunami incident where it had changed the world's map forever. it actually has make us lost 1 second of our seconds in a day. for the whole of last week, all i could do is to do some research on the internet. all i could do is just cry as i sat and watched the horrific pictures of dead bodies in acheh, sri lanka and india. i really can't imagine what kind of life and emotions that they are facing right now. i can't really contribute money as i am always running out of money myself, thanks to the delay caused by ptptn. thus, the only contribution that i can make is to pay visits to the places that are destroyed caused by the tsunami. however, time has once again stopped me from pursuing my intentions. i really wanted to go to penang last weekend,as i heard that they are really in need of emotional support. clothes and food are quite sufficient there according to sources who have already visited the sites. thus, i felt emotional troubled myself as i am unable to help them in this nearest future. however, my prayers will always be with them. today, i am planning to go and help out and arrange the supplies that they plan to send to acheh and other affected places. the thing that saddens me most, is when some malaysians takes advantage by contributing old clothes which can be better considered as rags. some even gave used undies and under garments. do you think that this is the place where you dump all your rubbish and trash? sometimes malaysians can be so inconsiderate. just yesterday, i read in an entertainment newspaper how the writer was upset with the malaysian artists. how they have not contributed anything for they so-called fans whom because of them, the artists stand where they are today. the writer further commented that only a few were really concerned with the ppl who were affected. this is inconsiderate and injustice as probably those are the same ppl who have helped these artists in their succesful career. they have so much money, thanks to the fans who buy their original album, lines up in long ques just to buy their concert tickets and who only ends up being ignored and abondoned by the same person whom they have gave unconditional support. only a few really came up and gave their donations and support. thanks a lot malaysian artists!!!

the tsunami incident

tgh bosan gile ni..tak ahh sebenarnya penatla. aku kat pre-camp anjuran british council. wondering what i'm doing here in front of the pc, supposedly doing research tp dah penat sgt learning about community and stuff. dah la kena get approval before we get to continue further with our projects. well, finally aku confirmed dapat gi indonesia next month. tapi risau gak with all the earthquake and all. tapi kitaorg kat somewhere near jakarta. and kat jawa island takde gunung whatsoever tp takut plak bombings kat bali n etc.. dapat gakla jumpa a few participants frm around m'sia. so far, they are okay, quite friendly.tp nak buat survey kat brickfields ni susah sket coz some of them are unwilling to participate. ada yg mcm sombong sket. anyway, now talking about the tsunami that hit penang on sunday. it was really a tragedy. my condolensces to all those that have lost their family members. sian kat asma coz her family member were some who was involved with the disaster. cousin dia patah kaki nak selamatkan adik asma, adam. and adam was bruised half of his body. he was actually already pulled into the water then cousin asma selamatkan dia. mmg Allah tak plan for his ajal yet. this disaster first in m'sia rings a bell to me. maybe there was a reason why it happened, the hidden reasons. we can only pray for the gone ones and hope that their souls will rest in peace.

bored!!!

hehe...it's me again making another entry...well sbenarnya aku tgh bosan ni nak mnunggu bila nak buat final rehearsal tok drama competition malam ni..argh...tensionnya. byk benda je aku tension pasal drama thn ni, tak sama fun mcm tahun lepas..tp takle nak cite kat sini takut akan muguriskan perasaan org. masa raya ari tu, tanpa disangka2 kawan rapat aku masa ssp dulu dah pindah belajar kat uitm shah alam dari uitm jengka pahang. kalau tak pasal kad raya, mmg aku tak tau pkembangan cite die. tak sangka plak die myewa dekat betul gan umah aku, mmg jodoh. so when my kakngah invited her friends over for raya, aku ajaklah dia dtg skali. we had a blast. bayangkanla dah lima tahun tak jumpa, mmg rindu. now, we are keeping in touch n i am glad that we are still close as before. really, tak sangka yg she will be that close to me, i mean now we can meet up without any problems.really can't wait to get my loan so that aku bole lepak gan die every weekend. tapi itu the gd side of moving to shah alam, tp the sad part i had to leave my dearest friend maznifa. we can no longer hang out like we used to. kalau dulu, aku boring gi je umah dia n lepak dpn umah die, bborak2. skang ni gayut dlm fon je la. janji nak jumpa tp tak jumpa2 gak.sedih waa... ni smua faktor ptptn tak masuk lagi.. kawan2 aku yg dulu rapat masa matriks dulu pun aku dah okay balik gan dieorg. dulu mrajuk kejap sebab aku rase, aku je yg byk buat sacrifice for them. now, i have learned that i cannot put any expectation on them, moreover kitaorg pun ada life masing2. another thing yg aku risau ni, aku tak dapat lagi jawapan dari british council whether betul ke aku ni confirm nak gantikan one participant yg dah tarik diri. i really wanna go..frust gak masa dapat tau tak dapat pegi tp jadi reserve je tok youth camp tu. hopefully aku dapat join ira, mar n 7 more participants frm m'sia to indon next month for this youth camp.pray for me friends!and pray that somehow,we will bring something for mahalla tonight.

where is my loan???

lately i have been feeling really tired n exausted. i'm not sure what is the cause of it but it's actually weird. the thing is that i used to have so much energy and i can stay up really late at night. but since this sem reopens, i noticed that my energy level is not the same as before. am i getting older??whenever i try to stay up and study, mind you i can only study at night, i really cannot wake up in the morning. it's really sad and scary when i had to miss two of madam ahlam's class. i'm so going to be in big trouble. maybe the fact that we have to practice for our drama competition late at night, does not help either.maybe i don't have enuff rest. anyway, to all the girls in uia who will read this, all of you are invited to watch the inter-mahallah drama competition at the main audi. i will be acting alongside farhana. come n watch us!! another thing that is bothering me is that ptptn has not given our money. i am so desperately in need of money. how can i survive?? i really don't wanna ask my parents for money..feel guilty..

what a reality??

lawak ke hidup ni?kekadang aku tfikir juga, betul ke hidup ni lawak atau kita yg melawakkannya? sejak seminggu ni, aku cuma memahami pengertian hidup dan apa yg cinta mampu lakukan ke atas kita. aku bukan cuba untuk bpujangga disini kerana that is really not my talent, but i really had to ponder hard when there was this incident which happened last week. according to sources,ada seorg makhluk Allah yg tlh lama mempunyai imej terpuji ttp disebabkan oleh cinta,dia tlh menjadi hanyut.aku sedih mmikirkan keadaan ni kerana shabat yg aku kenali dulu tkenal gan kesopanannya,baik tingkahlaku dan segala benda yg baik diassociatekan dgn org ni. tapi alangkah malangnya bila segala pbuatan baik dia kini menjadi umpatan buat dirinya sendiri. ada suatu ketika dulu, dia pernah menegur rakan2ku kerana tidak menutup aurat secara sempurna tp kini bila kulihat gambar2dia bermesra with his girlfriend without any limits,i start to question myself,whois actually this guy??? manusia ini yg hanya berbicara ttg agungnya CINTA KEPADA ALLAH,kini telah hanyut bersama cinta kepada manusia. aku tidak mempertikaikan cinta kepada manusia but can you imagine the guy that alwiz preach to u about religion, aurat, hukum hakam,who only wears kopiah, serban n jubah to classes can change just because he has declared that he has found true love?? i need to rethink this...but i pray to Allah SWT that somehow he will come back to the right path and that we will stay strong and not fall for syaitan's trap.nauzubillah

muslims yg dah murtad, dicopy dari forwarded email

> > > Assalamua'laikum, > > > > > > Semoga saudara saudara sekelian di dalam > > > perlindungan ALLAH > > > sentiasa. > > > > > > Aku nak citer satu kisah yang aku alami sendiri baru > > > baru ni. > > > Minggu lepas sedang aku duduk duduk di satu tempat, > > > aku bersembang > > > dengan seorang lawyer. > > > > > > Lelaki, umur lebih kurang sebaya aku. Dia ni Lawyer > > > Syariah. > > > Mula tu kami sembang biasa aje, yelah baru jumpa, > > > macam strangers,. > > > lama lama kami fokus pada satu subjek. Dia ceritakan > > > pada aku salah > > > seorang anak guam (client) dia. Client dia ni > > > seorang perempuan > > > Melayu, umur lebih kurang 20an. Kisahnya client dia > > > ni nak tuntut > > > hak penjagaan anaknya daripada bekas boyfriend dia, > > > orang India > > > berugama Hindu. > > > > > > Anak-anak yang dia nak tuntut hak tu ialah anak > > > dengan bekas boyfriend > > > dia lah, dua orang. Sekarang dalam jagaan bekas > > > boyfriend dia. Semasa > > > dia buat tuntutan hak penjagaan tu, dia datang > > > bersama boyfirend dia > > > yang baru, India jugak, ugama Hindu. Anak anak yang > > > dia nak tuntut tu > > > adalah anak luar nikah ditakrifkan sebagai "Anak Tak > > > Sah Taraf". Tak > > > habis kat situ kisahnya, selain dari nak tuntut hak > > > penjagaan anak, dia > > > pun nak fail permohonan tukar ugama, dari ugama > > > Islam kepada Hindu, atau > > > kata lain Murtad. Tambah kata lawyer tu lagi, si > > > perempuan ni sanggup > > > bersusah payah, belanja beribu ringgit upah lawyer > > > lain untuk mohon > > > tukar ugama sebab lawyer yang bersembang dengan aku > > > ni tadi tak mahu > > > terima job tu. > > > > > > Dia sanggup keluar belanja sendiri untuk tukar > > > ugama, dari Islam jadi > > > Hindu hanya sebab sukakan si lelaki India berugama > > > Hindu tu. Kata lawyer > > > tu, dalam ramai ramai orang Islam, si perempuan ni > > > sukakan Hindu. Dia > > > tak suka orang Islam. Aku katakan kepada lawyer tu, > > > kalau nak murtad, > > > tak payah mohon dengan mahkamah, kita ni sendiri tak > > > mohon pun kekadang > > > boleh jatuh murtad secara tak kita sedari, dek pasal > > > perkataan atau > > > perbuatan kita. > > > > > > Lawyer tu kemudian bercerita pulak pada aku, sejak > > > kebelakangan ini, > > > di mahkamah dalam Malaysia ni tak kurang dari 10,000 > > > permohonan untuk > > > menukar ugama dari Islam kepada ugama ugama lain, > > > Krisitan dan Hindu > > > kebanyakannya. Sebabnya macam macam, dari sebab > > > jatuh cinta sampai ke > > > sebab saja suka suka. Katanya lagi, kisah bebudak > > > melayu, kebanyakannya > > > anak anak remaja yang buat tattoo tanda salib di > > > badan dan pakai rantai > > > salib tu dah banyak sangat pengaduan dari mak bapak > > > yang dia terima. > > > > > > Heran aku kenapa orang bersusah payah nak buat > > > permohonan nak keluar > > > dari Islam, tak cukup dengan perangai macam kafir, > > > minum arak, berjudi, > > > berzina, sihir menyihir dan segala macam perangai > > > setan yang dibuatnya > > > dia kena pulak mohon jadi murtad. > > > > > > Kalau dulu aku cuma dengar dari third party kisah > > > Aisyah yang murtad dan > > > jadi spokesperson kat convention kat London, kali > > > ini aku dengar dari > > > mulut lawyer yang mengendalikan kes seperti itu > > > sendiri. Dan baru baru ni > > > ada disiarkan dalam Star, akan diadakan satu > > > perjumpaan Interfaith > > > Convention > > > yang akan diadakan dalam bulan Ogos ni di satu > > > gereja kat PJ old town.. > > > > > > The members of the interfaith convention ni terdiri > > > dari orang-orang > > > pelbagai ugama, dan menjemput orang orang dari semua > > > kalangan masyarakat > > > menyertai covention itu. Presiden interfaith > > > committee tu, ialah seorang > > > melayu, bertitle Ir. Aku mula memikirkan, kalau si > > > Melayu ni, (I presume > > > he is a muslim) boleh buat convention kat gereja tu, > > > ada ke dia buat > > > something yang sebegitu di masjid di kariah dia, or > > > bcos he spends so > > > much time with the interfaith committee (since he is > > > the president) he > > > rarely or never have time to do anything at the > > > masjid or even go to > > > the masjid. > > > > > > Baru baru ni juga aku pergi kat satu tempat kat PD. > > > Kat situ, ada satu > > > bekas perkampongan orang orang Melayu juga yang > > > mengamalkan ajaran Islam > > > ikut sesedap rasa dia. Mengikut keterangan guide aku > > > tu, pengikut pengikut > > > ugama tu, boleh berkahwin sesama adik beradik > > > sendiri dan mereka juga ada > > > surau tempat bersembahyang dan ada juga colok dan > > > bekas kemenyan kat batu > > > besar. Dalam hati aku berkata, kalau dah nak sembah > > > batu, kenapa nak ada > > > surau? Orang orang ni nampaknya keliru, macam mana > > > nak praktikkan pegangan > > > ugama dia orang. Nak solat macam orang Islam tu ke, > > > atau nak pasang colok > > > dengan kemenyan sembah batu besar kat tepi pokok tu? > > > Kalau dah boleh kahwin > > > sesama adik beradik sendiri, buat apa susah payah > > > nak kena nikahkan. itu > > > adalah antara perangai perangai pelik sesetengah > > > orang Melayu. Dari > > > peringkat > > > tinggi, berpelajaran dan perpangkat tinggi, sampai > > > ke peringkat rendah tak > > > berpelajaran dan tak berpangkat, sedang orang di > > > tempat lain bermatian > > > matian > > > mempertahankan syiar Islam, di sini ada pulak yang > > > bersusah payah nak tukar > > > ugama dari Islam jadi kafir. > > > > > > From the short encounter with the lawyer, I deduced > > > that, kebelakangan ni > > > sesetengah orang melayu yang agaknya muslim, are > > > becoming the champions of > > > many matters. Tapi champion dalam hal nak > > > melingkupkan ugama dan bangsa > > > sendiri. Dalam hal hal sebegini, tak banyak yang > > > pihak berkuasa boleh buat. > > > The judiciary system in Malaysia is based on "Common > > > Law" atau yang terguna > > > pakai di England. Walaupun kita dah 47 tahun > > > merdeka, pemikiran orang > > > Melayu masih lagi dijajah, dan tak lama lagi akan > > > dijajah semula tapi kali > > > ni secara sukarela pulak apabila orang melayu yang > > > asalnya Islam, mohon > > > nak tukar ugama jadi kristian, jadi hindu, jadi > > > atheist, sembah pokok, > > > sembah batu dan segala amalan karut marut lain > > > selain dari jadi Islam yang > > > menjanjikan Syurga kepada penganutnya. > > > > > > Kepada saudara saudara sekelian, renung > > > renungkanlah....... > > > > > > Wassalam, 2nd part penulis email ni ade sebut psl seorang muslim yg murtad dan jadi spokeperson dlm convention kat london. aku ade link utk speech wanita murtad ni.so aku rasa ade eloknya aku attach skali link ni utk kekawan yg tak tau kes ni.utk jadi bukti betapa fitnah yg ditakuti oleh Nabi Muhammad telah berleluasa skang ni. http://www.gnwidegroup.com/hasnah/hasnah.htm aku harap kekawan kite bleh forward kan email ni supaya lebih ramai lagi tahu dan dgr sendiri bukti mengenai kes hasnah ni. nauzubillah min zaalik

entahla. sbenarnya tak ada mood nak tulis ni sbb dah pukul lima pg n aku masih tak tido, inilah akibatnya kalau bz n tak sempat nak bukak email sampai berpuluh2 dlm inbox. tu pun aku masih malas nak baca. last week, dalam sejarah kali kedua aku bkubang kat library. mmg bukan tempat aku. first of all, aku akan slalu tgk org yg masuk lib, klau org tu aku kenal, aku akan borak atau kacau org tu. kedua, kalau tak ada yg aku kenal masuk, then aku akan mula mengantuk and takle nak concentrate. ketiga, aku jenis yg kena baca kuat2 tok faham apa yg aku baca,kat library kena hush2 n whisper ala2 romantic gitu, jadiknya aku mgantuk lagi..haha tapi disebabkan mooting, nak tak nak there was i, without fail bmukim kat library.buat rsearch tapi arguments tak paham2 gak. the day b4 nak moot baru really understood the thing. gile ke ape? tp lega benda tu dah habis, skang nak concentrate on finals. tapi aku ingat baru nak berehat tetibe kena balik uia sbb ada meeting agm, tu la ngada2 sgt nak jadi committee, tp takpela, nak buat mcm mane.. emm.. pasal agm gak, aku pun mcm tak caya yg aku btanding. am i doing the right thing here? after all, it has been three years i have been fighting for the law students' right but somehow i cud never do it alone, skang ni org mletakkan kepercayaan, tu yg lagi takut tu.bole ke aku mrealisasikan impian mereka. aku takut nanti mereka akan kecewa.tapi aku mmg ada impian untuk memajukan budak2 law, bukan dari segi pelajaran je tp dr segi pr dan perhubungan sesame manusia. graduan kita slalu dilabelkan introvert so it is high time that we do somethin' to change that perception and prove ourselves. and as sir budiman kata to our mooting class, if we keep up with the standard that we are in now, n try to improve a little more, insya-Allah, org akan respect dgn graduan law dr uia. takpela kalau aku tak buat change kat law society yg penting, i am making a change here at home.ape2 yg aku buat akan affect family aku so therefore i'm already making changes, cukupla setakat sewa cd tok tampung blanja sket2 walaupun tak cukup. the change that i make? tak payah mintak duit slalu sgt kat parents aku, n dieorg pun takyah risau n mbebankan diri nak cari duit utk aku. tu yg nak jual kuih tok raya ni,nak cari duit lebih, hopefully laku. namun, disebalik segala dugaan yg kami sekeluarga hadapi tahun ni, Allah sentiasa murahkan rezeki kami dgn kehadiran org baru. believe me it never stops. last year, alysya came into the family, this year it was nadiah n insya-Allah, another one next year.. another thing that i am alwiz grateful of, is that i am surrounded by friends who love me. that has helped me a lot in facing all the obstacles in my life. u guys , fad n aliza especially are my torch!!

holidays...

haha, it's great that finally the holidays are greeting me. i really need a break badly.most of my tests are over except 4 company law n client counselling finals 4 mooting class. after 2 weeks of finishing with my hectic schedule(millef), i actually had some space to breath. the week after i finished millef, i was again running off 2 finish my assignments.then had a test to cover.but the second week was the most trying(not da others aren't but note 'the most'). not only tht i had 3 major tests(don't even mention how i did for all those tests, that is another story all together) but with all the lectures tht we had to attend, tutorials which consists of doing tons of assignments.and plus i had to juggle that n the fact tht my dad was again readmitted to da hosp for some operations.to my certain friends, hope tht all of us will be strong in facing the test that has been given to us. we have realized our mistake n had apologized sincerely n accordingly n if we are not forgiven is because someone is selfish n immature. n if the situation remains the same then we are no longer at fault n shud not be blamed. this is been said after much discussion and matured thinking with some friends who are involved. on friday, after an exaustive n trying week, my friends n i made some plan to go out n exchange our much belated birthday presents. but due to some changes they cud not make it. as i really needed some time off, i decided to go out alone. n i am glad tht i made tht decision. i drove all the way 2 O.U, feling a little glad n free, n after 5 hours spending time all by myself, i found it truly remarkable n refreshing.had missed tht feeling for quite some time. all i did was catch a movie(catwoman,was good), n spend plenty2 of time shopping alone. later visited my dad n spent 3 hours with him. it really gave me a relief feeling. i came back tht nite, just in time to change b4 heading out 4 my client counselling practice with adib supervised by sir budiman.it was really unexpected when when we were commented tht we had not missed out a single structure n had divided our parts perfectly.n to top it off, sir said tht we were the best team 4 tht nite so far. u cud only imagine how adib n i felt at tht moment. amazingly proud n glad for ourselves. bukan nak perasan tp just happy tht we did well. i was so thankful that after all tht i hv been thru tht week,tht day had paid off all my sufferings n pain tht i had 2 go thru' for the week. in one day i had managed sucessfully to make myself very happy n confident, fulfilling my responsibility as a daughter n pleasing my lecturer. this is the sweetest gift Allah have bestowed upon me after this week's TESTS. as aliza said to me there is a hikmah over what has happened, n now i am proud n grateful to say that i have witnessed that beauty. PRAISE TO ALLAH!! ALLAHUAKBAR!!

lately, there are many things bothering my mind. i can't even recall the last time that my head was not filled with some work that need to be done. honestly, almost a month now in this semester, i feel like i really2, desperately need a break. it's unbelievable how third year is torturing u. i mean with all the things that we have to do for tutorials like sketches, debates, n bla2. mmglah it's going to benefit us in the future but sketches? though it's fun but actually it takes most of ur time, frm arranging meetings with group members to actually attending those discussions...arghh..then kena buat research lg, pastu bile dah buat penat2 tetibe tak cukup time, is it not wasting? but on another view, trying to rationalize here, it's true in the outside world. kite dah penat2 buat docs tp kalau salah takle submit kat ct, kena balik betulkan. dahla kena marah kat ct pastu balik kat office kena marah lagi gan bos. so anyway, if the docs are submitted but due to some technical problems then the case will be strike off by the judge n once again our hard work n effort is wasted. so ppl who are in the third year just bear with what we have to do right now, but with a few adjustments frm the lecturer won't hurt either. p/s: i don't know how i can cope with millef(pr central), closing ceremony(involved with performance), then classes n tutorials..cc competition...my dad being unwell(in the hosp)...n i had to quit convest...god, give me will n strength n energy!!

CONFIDENCE TEST

The Confidence Test hida, your confidence level is high As a result, you may tend view yourself as a wonderful, lucky, or energized person. However you probably also have your days when you don't feel so hot. After all, you're only human. Because of your usual high level of self-acceptance and belief in yourself, you're generally open and accepting of others. People who come in contact with you likely appreciate this generous nature and may seek out your company. Your social ability seems to be the trait that you most value in yourself of the five main traits that affect confidence. You also seem to appreciate this characteristic in others.

do i follow my heart or my head?

Heart-Strong Idealist You're an impassioned individual who just can't suppress your ideals. You've got a strong sense of right and wrong, and want to let people know when they've crossed the line. Sure, there are times when you sit back to hear both sides of an argument. But people had better stay out of the way when your fiery passions take hold. But just because you can be a bit of a rebel with a cause, it doesn't mean you're incapable of being understanding and compassionate. It's because you're so invested in your ideas and interests that you can work so tirelessly toward your goals and speak up for what you believe in. So keep pouring your heart into it. With conviction like yours, you're sure to succeed!

sem baru

ni dah masuk hari kelima aku telah menjejakkan kaki di bumi uia ni. and dlm masa lima hari dah bjuta benda aku dah buat. maybe to some others the reopening of sem is something that they are not looking forward to, compared to me who have been staying at home for almost 4 months. i admit, i was also not to keen of coming here, maybe bcoz the thought of repacking n unpacking n cleaning up my room makes me feel a little hesitant to come here.yelah, with all the dust n dirt, mind u i am highly allergic to it(i'll get a terrible flu almost all the time). but to be honest, i am really looking forward to this sem. what more with being in third year, maybe there is a sense of seniority, then with tons of programmes to look forward to, i am ready to study n have fun at the same time too... hope to my dearest friends yg still feeling sad and down, i pray that soon i can share this semester's excitement with all of u. don't feel sad, eh..just let the past go away n enjoy the remaining days that we still have in our lives as we will never know what might come our way. p/s:loving Allah more n more each day.

2ND PART OF ATTACHMENT

okla, ari tu aku dah tulis pasal the first part of my attachment, now i shall continue with the second part. the first day which i thought was the worst day turned out to be one of the best i have had in my life. it started with me being quite late.tak berape clear sgt kepale due 2 sleeping quite late the day b4, so lps subuh, terus sbg tido.ingatkan nak bgn kul 7.30 am tp tbgn 8.20 am n i was supposed 2 be at work at around 8.30 though i was hardly punctual the week b4,hehe. kul 8.30 am baru siap mandi n mar dah call,gelabah gile aku masa tu. dgn tudung tak gosok lg masa tu.ingatkan nak ponteng je rase tp mmikirkan that week we were attached to the ct, i decided against it. so i asked mar not to wait for me. dgn nak cepatnya, gosok tudung pun tah ape2 tah, n breakfast pun tak sempat terus blah. luckily my house is not that far frm ct, only 7 mins.tp tkejut gile bile sampai which was already 8.45 am. sepanjang jln tu penuh gan keta sampai hujung jln, n both sides plak tu.aku pun kena park my car quite far n had 2 walk up all the way to the ct. i arrived exactly at 9 am. i was so scared coz mar dah masuk ct, n i don't know which ct i am assigned to, which means that i have to see tuan.grr..takutnye. pastu gan muka yg amat gelabah, aku pun cepat2 gi bgn civil registry where his room is situated. kat situ,blambak lawyers waiting to submit their docs. i juz couldn't wait coz proceedings are going 2 start at 9am. i was so panicked tp buat cool je. akupun slambe masuk tpt office which is strictly not permitted 4 lawyers(only staff). lawyers only get 2 be the max is at the counter, 2 yg tuan dok ingatkan kat kitaorg supaya take the opportunity now to really go thru the files n doc.(masa masuk tu nampak privilege sgt coz pakai black n white tp dpt masuk, da lawyers were all looking). back 2 my story, tanya kak lia about tuan, tuan lak takde kat bilik. terus aku bgegas gi ct 4 where mar is assigned to.dahla tingkat7, tp hehe, tak naik tangga but lift.then nasib baik ct xstart lg proceedings, so aku pun gi kat mar, ingatkan nak join rupenye seats kat dpn tu dah penuh(seats yg tempatkan jurubahasa),yg uia slalu panggil bailiff.(we'll get back to the terms later).pastu aku pun lgla tak tau nak buat ape. decided nak tgk frm public gallery but then takut nnt tuan marah. skali fate, tetibe nampak tuan br kuar so aku pun kejar die. had 2 explain myself, luckily he was not that angry so die pun attached aku wif mar but when i told the situation, he brought me 2 ct 2(criminal ct). masa tu tak perasan lg judge 4 that ct is datuk ideres rapee(sape yg tak tau, he was the judge yg presided canny ong's case). aku pun slambe je masuk ikut tuan, tak taula plak die nak introduce aku kat judge, actually more of minta izin to follow the proceedings.this comes the BEST PART bcoz he actually invited me to join him in his chambers which i must tell u is VERY2 RARE. tuan dah nak blah tetibe datuk kata "marilah masuk skali, karang org kata saya nak mgurat die plak(refering 2 me)" tuan pun serba salah tp masuk gak pastu datuk kata lg "ala, nak ngurat ape awak ni baya anak saya" sambil gelak. aku pun senyum je. so for the next 15 mins while waiting for some witnesses to come, we had a chat. he asked me questions n i asked him some inquries too. he was very open n friendly(humble n down to earth, i must say),VERY2 HUMBLE N DOWN 2 EARTH N FUNNY TOO!!! best sgt, he shared some of his experience n gave me tons of advice. only god knows how lucky i felt at that moment. dah abis borak, coz kena start proceeding, it was gettin late almost 9.40, so i excused myself frm his chambers with tuan. tuan pun thought that i was very lucky to have had that chance. i really must say that, that experience is very INVALUABLE p/s: anak die sume guys,haha,around my age???twinkle*** sorg blaja kat uitm.anyway about the real term for bailiff(which is widely being used in uia, it's actually jurubahasa or interpreter,n bailiif is actually the ppl who auctions those unwanted exhibits to public). to be continued

entahla

malas betul rasenye nak balik uia..i really don't know why i feel this way. well i guess it's understandable. i mean i've been home for almost four months. i almost forgot how is campus life is. really, i barely can remember.... help me, malasnye nak pack.....

ATTACHMENT

Esok last day aku keja kat shah alam h.ct. tak tau nak rasa ape, rase sedih pun ada, rase lega pun ada. Maybe sbb dah tak larat lagi kot. Kitaorg keja 10 days, many things we have gained there. Tak tcerita smuanya tp nakla share sket experience. Mar pun ada tulis gak dlm blog die pasal our adventure kat sane, sedikit sbyk korg can get the general idea, bacelah blog die, cewah promote lak. Tapi aku pun ade version aku though the environment is the same. 1st DAY kitaorg dtg n tconggok depan civil registry kat shah alam h.ct, bgn sayap kiri pg2 lg.(mcm parti politik plak). Pastu ptemuan sekian lama, mbuahkan hasil iaitu gosip2 tbaru yg hangat di pasaran uia, dah lama tak keep up, hehe. Smua tunggu tuan yg garang, takut nak masuk sampai dpt arahan. Akhirnya, penantian yg ditunggu sekian lama tjadi gak. Malangnya kitaorg tak bwk blazer n xle ditempatkan di ct, so jadik freelance, tgk kes2 frm the public gallery, did not enjoy the experience. Bosan..so gi subang parade nak carik blazer. Muna n kaot balik uia, amik blazer. Mar yg beli, aku tgk je, hehe 2nd DAY aku siap pakai black n white, ala2 gaya lawyer betul with my black long skirt n white blouse, tetibe ct xde prosiding coz ct vacation. Tpaksela keja kat bgn docs n civil registry(processing n fixing). Dahla aku pakai baju black n white, org lain sempoi je pakai baju kurung(staff), so I really look ackward. Even lawyers yg dtg pun asyik tgk je..pastu blur tak tau nak buat ape, mintak kakak kat bgn tu bg keja. Aku pun buat la keja dgn tekunnya, bgn bankrapsi..memule sblm mintak keja, duduk tmenung main phone depan fail2 yg btimbun. Byk betul kes yg ttunggak..abg kat sblh aku tu plak asyik mgacau aku, kalo tak tido, myoal aku mcm2(mcm private investigator plak), tak larat nak layan, kalo tak, die scrutinize ape yg aku pakai n buat, rimas betul la…sambil buat keja, aku ada gak try2 nak baca docs , ikut advice ira tp xphm, yela xblaja lg kan. nak tanya malu sbb smua nampak bz except abg kat sblh aku…kul 4 confident je dah abis keja, ajak mar n kaot gi jumpa tuan, dah kena marah tak baca docs n tanya kat staff. Kitaorg pun balik n try blaja, aku n kaot buat2 baca docs sambil grumbling(we were not informed, blur la kan). Mar dah bz btanya dah… 3rd DAY best sket sbb buat kat atas, power attorney. Dpt kenal gan k.azrah(jurubahasa datuk ideres), k.anem, n abg hashim. Keja xbyk tp cop2la.aku bz betul amik nota n btanya.yela, smlm tak tanya kan so esok tu aku tanyala puas2 sampai kak anem tu irritated coz I asked too much, hehe. Abg hashim asyik suruh aku senyum je, aku pun xphm, buat keja mestila serius kan? Nnt org kata SS, syok sendiri, hehe. aku pun nak jadik budak baikla kan, so kul 4 tu aku turun nak photostate some docs yg nak blaja(takkan nak salin all those agreements)n bla,bla.. tetibe tuan dtg n marah. Muna slambe je, aku yg tkebil2(speechless). Geram betul aku kat tuan, smlm suruh blaja, bile nak blaja nak kena bayar plak siap buat lakonan smula dlm otak, ish..tak baik. Tuan tak garang sbenarnya, maybe aku je yg xphm niat die, confuse sket… 4th DAY ni plg best sbb aku dpt duduk kat tpt call2, mcm receptionist plak, tp tak call pun, hehe. susun docs ikut nom, blaja kes mane yg dipindahkan ke ct ape..etc. Mentor aku, abg amin kena gi meeting, so aku pun mrayapla kacau muna n kaot. Sblm tu nak cite, abg amin tu ckp pun aku xdgr, perlahan gile, kalo cal lawyer suruh amik doc pun slow sgt. aku pun saje je jahat buat2 xdgr, terus volume die on, hehe. last2 mar, aku n kaot gi jln2 tgk ct proceedings with tuan’s permission. Muna xikut coz byk keja. ptg aku nak sambung keja which is call2, tp phone kena amik sbb dieorg nak test internet line(baru nak install). Mine u, the system is still filing n not computerized. Aku pun bosan, sambil borak n bloyar buruk gan abg amin, aku susun fail n cuba mmahami what the ct staffs are going thru’. Take note it is not easy to process all those docs n fulfill the needs of at least 4000 applications per day. N that is only for one department. imagine four?? Mostly laywers are not likeable, no offence but some do come with attitude probs. Taula nak cepat but they(da staff) are working their best n at their optimum level(quoting judge datin paduka zaleha’s words to me n some lawyers).she was explaining some things to lawyers so that they will understand the ct’s prob. Pastu borak gan kat siti, more enlightment about certain lawyer’s rude attitude n blaja kod2 mahkamah n saman pmula n stuff… 5th DAY ingat kena gi tpt civil, tetibe tuan suruh blaja criminal. Aku duduk gan k.lia yg cun wif mar n muna n kaot duduk gan abg khairol a.k.a abg vest, haha. Byk pasal kes criminal n docs. N dapat tgk pics arwah noor suzaily, sedih sgt, I almost cried. Kejam betul si hanafi tu..ARGHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! byk gak kitaorg blaja kat situ, mcm2 kes(baca blog mar), cewah promote lagik..yg tak sanggup baca testi budak india yg nampak arwah masa she was in the bus crying for help. When I read it, I can’t imagine the kid’s feelings. Sure helpless sbb tak dapat tlg n found out that she ended up dead. Ptg gi tgk kes2 kat ct lagik… ……… to be continued

POEM WRITTEN IN FRIENDSTER BULLETIN BOARD

there is nothing more beautiful, than having this friendship that we share, though i am very grateful, the thought of losing u i can't bear. how i cheerish those times n moment, when we would share jokes n laughter, those times i would treasure n put in my heart to remember. we will be friends forever, through the ups and down of life, together we will venture, the true meaning of being alive. here you and me, forever friends we will be, nothing will keep us apart, you are too special in my heart. i will always be there for you, sharing all that u go thru', or even when u feel blue.. we are good friends till whenever, that i will always remember... created personally by: HiDa

dedicated to someone special

together you and me, good friends we used to be, we used to joke, laugh and teased each other, friends till the end forever. but then i made a mistake by giving you a letter, and i cannot take back what i did, no matter. look at what i have gained, nothing but just sheer pain, nothing could change what i've done, weeks have turned into months, just hope that we could restore, the frienship that we had before.

malasnye nak balik uia

actually, i've been moping around the house since march. i really can't imagine how am i going to face a day filled with classes. the very thought of having to wake up early, ironing my clothes n get ready to class has already made me yawning. am i a lazy bum?probably. i mean after all, i am so used to waking up not that early n doing the daily routines which i shall not mention here. god, give me strength to face all my friends, lecturers, the gruelling hours of lectures, the torturing moments of tutorials.arghh... despite that, however i am amazed to say that actually i miss all those activities which means that now i have something to look forward to, such as exams??? n not tv shows???arghhh... p/s: grateful to be a student

american idol? m'sian idol? did they sto the war? IDOL?

talkin once again about american idol, malaysia has also created the exact entertainment show which in now busy touring around malaysia to find those who are interested to be in the show. but once again i was struck by the word idol.is it that easy to be an idol? it may seem clear to everbody that it is the singing competition that will eventually determine whether u are a star or not. but with deeper observation, the words used are something else. it is true that once u win or probably juz be in the top 12,u will have ur own fans n stardom but i wonder why is everybody esp m'sians here are so eager to be the next popstar n to be idolized by their voices instead of their contibutions to the country, the nation, and religion n be a real m'sian idol in the truest sense. p/s: i wonder how come ppl like those uitm students who climbed mount. everest didn't get as much attention as this m'sian idol. see how the west has once again succeeded in making this show into one of the most watched singing competition.when will we have our own original n successful educatonal but yet entertaining shows? i wonder...

copy-cats

skang ni american idol dah habis. dah tau pmenangnye is fantasia barrino. well, i think that she deserves to win. after all her performance was great. talking about american idol, it's funny seeing that now in m'sia, most tv shows are also creating shows somewhat like american idol though in a different version.take for example audition, the really latest copy-cat entertainment show. why are they competing? back to this audition show, it is somewhat a combination of akademi fantasia version n american idol. by showing their routines n practices it is something like akademi fantasia, then the last lowest three must perform b4 being voted off is definitely american idol's version.then raja azura will make this sympathetic voice exactly like aznil in a.f juz to make the audience feel a little emotional.god, can't they have their own identity? well, who am i to judge cause i know out there,there are still many ppl watchin' n enjoying da show, not to forget vote as well. p/s: the acting is quite original though...