the tsunami incident

tgh bosan gile ni..tak ahh sebenarnya penatla. aku kat pre-camp anjuran british council. wondering what i'm doing here in front of the pc, supposedly doing research tp dah penat sgt learning about community and stuff. dah la kena get approval before we get to continue further with our projects. well, finally aku confirmed dapat gi indonesia next month. tapi risau gak with all the earthquake and all. tapi kitaorg kat somewhere near jakarta. and kat jawa island takde gunung whatsoever tp takut plak bombings kat bali n etc.. dapat gakla jumpa a few participants frm around m'sia. so far, they are okay, quite friendly.tp nak buat survey kat brickfields ni susah sket coz some of them are unwilling to participate. ada yg mcm sombong sket. anyway, now talking about the tsunami that hit penang on sunday. it was really a tragedy. my condolensces to all those that have lost their family members. sian kat asma coz her family member were some who was involved with the disaster. cousin dia patah kaki nak selamatkan adik asma, adam. and adam was bruised half of his body. he was actually already pulled into the water then cousin asma selamatkan dia. mmg Allah tak plan for his ajal yet. this disaster first in m'sia rings a bell to me. maybe there was a reason why it happened, the hidden reasons. we can only pray for the gone ones and hope that their souls will rest in peace.

bored!!!

hehe...it's me again making another entry...well sbenarnya aku tgh bosan ni nak mnunggu bila nak buat final rehearsal tok drama competition malam ni..argh...tensionnya. byk benda je aku tension pasal drama thn ni, tak sama fun mcm tahun lepas..tp takle nak cite kat sini takut akan muguriskan perasaan org. masa raya ari tu, tanpa disangka2 kawan rapat aku masa ssp dulu dah pindah belajar kat uitm shah alam dari uitm jengka pahang. kalau tak pasal kad raya, mmg aku tak tau pkembangan cite die. tak sangka plak die myewa dekat betul gan umah aku, mmg jodoh. so when my kakngah invited her friends over for raya, aku ajaklah dia dtg skali. we had a blast. bayangkanla dah lima tahun tak jumpa, mmg rindu. now, we are keeping in touch n i am glad that we are still close as before. really, tak sangka yg she will be that close to me, i mean now we can meet up without any problems.really can't wait to get my loan so that aku bole lepak gan die every weekend. tapi itu the gd side of moving to shah alam, tp the sad part i had to leave my dearest friend maznifa. we can no longer hang out like we used to. kalau dulu, aku boring gi je umah dia n lepak dpn umah die, bborak2. skang ni gayut dlm fon je la. janji nak jumpa tp tak jumpa2 gak.sedih waa... ni smua faktor ptptn tak masuk lagi.. kawan2 aku yg dulu rapat masa matriks dulu pun aku dah okay balik gan dieorg. dulu mrajuk kejap sebab aku rase, aku je yg byk buat sacrifice for them. now, i have learned that i cannot put any expectation on them, moreover kitaorg pun ada life masing2. another thing yg aku risau ni, aku tak dapat lagi jawapan dari british council whether betul ke aku ni confirm nak gantikan one participant yg dah tarik diri. i really wanna go..frust gak masa dapat tau tak dapat pegi tp jadi reserve je tok youth camp tu. hopefully aku dapat join ira, mar n 7 more participants frm m'sia to indon next month for this youth camp.pray for me friends!and pray that somehow,we will bring something for mahalla tonight.

where is my loan???

lately i have been feeling really tired n exausted. i'm not sure what is the cause of it but it's actually weird. the thing is that i used to have so much energy and i can stay up really late at night. but since this sem reopens, i noticed that my energy level is not the same as before. am i getting older??whenever i try to stay up and study, mind you i can only study at night, i really cannot wake up in the morning. it's really sad and scary when i had to miss two of madam ahlam's class. i'm so going to be in big trouble. maybe the fact that we have to practice for our drama competition late at night, does not help either.maybe i don't have enuff rest. anyway, to all the girls in uia who will read this, all of you are invited to watch the inter-mahallah drama competition at the main audi. i will be acting alongside farhana. come n watch us!! another thing that is bothering me is that ptptn has not given our money. i am so desperately in need of money. how can i survive?? i really don't wanna ask my parents for money..feel guilty..

what a reality??

lawak ke hidup ni?kekadang aku tfikir juga, betul ke hidup ni lawak atau kita yg melawakkannya? sejak seminggu ni, aku cuma memahami pengertian hidup dan apa yg cinta mampu lakukan ke atas kita. aku bukan cuba untuk bpujangga disini kerana that is really not my talent, but i really had to ponder hard when there was this incident which happened last week. according to sources,ada seorg makhluk Allah yg tlh lama mempunyai imej terpuji ttp disebabkan oleh cinta,dia tlh menjadi hanyut.aku sedih mmikirkan keadaan ni kerana shabat yg aku kenali dulu tkenal gan kesopanannya,baik tingkahlaku dan segala benda yg baik diassociatekan dgn org ni. tapi alangkah malangnya bila segala pbuatan baik dia kini menjadi umpatan buat dirinya sendiri. ada suatu ketika dulu, dia pernah menegur rakan2ku kerana tidak menutup aurat secara sempurna tp kini bila kulihat gambar2dia bermesra with his girlfriend without any limits,i start to question myself,whois actually this guy??? manusia ini yg hanya berbicara ttg agungnya CINTA KEPADA ALLAH,kini telah hanyut bersama cinta kepada manusia. aku tidak mempertikaikan cinta kepada manusia but can you imagine the guy that alwiz preach to u about religion, aurat, hukum hakam,who only wears kopiah, serban n jubah to classes can change just because he has declared that he has found true love?? i need to rethink this...but i pray to Allah SWT that somehow he will come back to the right path and that we will stay strong and not fall for syaitan's trap.nauzubillah

muslims yg dah murtad, dicopy dari forwarded email

> > > Assalamua'laikum, > > > > > > Semoga saudara saudara sekelian di dalam > > > perlindungan ALLAH > > > sentiasa. > > > > > > Aku nak citer satu kisah yang aku alami sendiri baru > > > baru ni. > > > Minggu lepas sedang aku duduk duduk di satu tempat, > > > aku bersembang > > > dengan seorang lawyer. > > > > > > Lelaki, umur lebih kurang sebaya aku. Dia ni Lawyer > > > Syariah. > > > Mula tu kami sembang biasa aje, yelah baru jumpa, > > > macam strangers,. > > > lama lama kami fokus pada satu subjek. Dia ceritakan > > > pada aku salah > > > seorang anak guam (client) dia. Client dia ni > > > seorang perempuan > > > Melayu, umur lebih kurang 20an. Kisahnya client dia > > > ni nak tuntut > > > hak penjagaan anaknya daripada bekas boyfriend dia, > > > orang India > > > berugama Hindu. > > > > > > Anak-anak yang dia nak tuntut hak tu ialah anak > > > dengan bekas boyfriend > > > dia lah, dua orang. Sekarang dalam jagaan bekas > > > boyfriend dia. Semasa > > > dia buat tuntutan hak penjagaan tu, dia datang > > > bersama boyfirend dia > > > yang baru, India jugak, ugama Hindu. Anak anak yang > > > dia nak tuntut tu > > > adalah anak luar nikah ditakrifkan sebagai "Anak Tak > > > Sah Taraf". Tak > > > habis kat situ kisahnya, selain dari nak tuntut hak > > > penjagaan anak, dia > > > pun nak fail permohonan tukar ugama, dari ugama > > > Islam kepada Hindu, atau > > > kata lain Murtad. Tambah kata lawyer tu lagi, si > > > perempuan ni sanggup > > > bersusah payah, belanja beribu ringgit upah lawyer > > > lain untuk mohon > > > tukar ugama sebab lawyer yang bersembang dengan aku > > > ni tadi tak mahu > > > terima job tu. > > > > > > Dia sanggup keluar belanja sendiri untuk tukar > > > ugama, dari Islam jadi > > > Hindu hanya sebab sukakan si lelaki India berugama > > > Hindu tu. Kata lawyer > > > tu, dalam ramai ramai orang Islam, si perempuan ni > > > sukakan Hindu. Dia > > > tak suka orang Islam. Aku katakan kepada lawyer tu, > > > kalau nak murtad, > > > tak payah mohon dengan mahkamah, kita ni sendiri tak > > > mohon pun kekadang > > > boleh jatuh murtad secara tak kita sedari, dek pasal > > > perkataan atau > > > perbuatan kita. > > > > > > Lawyer tu kemudian bercerita pulak pada aku, sejak > > > kebelakangan ini, > > > di mahkamah dalam Malaysia ni tak kurang dari 10,000 > > > permohonan untuk > > > menukar ugama dari Islam kepada ugama ugama lain, > > > Krisitan dan Hindu > > > kebanyakannya. Sebabnya macam macam, dari sebab > > > jatuh cinta sampai ke > > > sebab saja suka suka. Katanya lagi, kisah bebudak > > > melayu, kebanyakannya > > > anak anak remaja yang buat tattoo tanda salib di > > > badan dan pakai rantai > > > salib tu dah banyak sangat pengaduan dari mak bapak > > > yang dia terima. > > > > > > Heran aku kenapa orang bersusah payah nak buat > > > permohonan nak keluar > > > dari Islam, tak cukup dengan perangai macam kafir, > > > minum arak, berjudi, > > > berzina, sihir menyihir dan segala macam perangai > > > setan yang dibuatnya > > > dia kena pulak mohon jadi murtad. > > > > > > Kalau dulu aku cuma dengar dari third party kisah > > > Aisyah yang murtad dan > > > jadi spokesperson kat convention kat London, kali > > > ini aku dengar dari > > > mulut lawyer yang mengendalikan kes seperti itu > > > sendiri. Dan baru baru ni > > > ada disiarkan dalam Star, akan diadakan satu > > > perjumpaan Interfaith > > > Convention > > > yang akan diadakan dalam bulan Ogos ni di satu > > > gereja kat PJ old town.. > > > > > > The members of the interfaith convention ni terdiri > > > dari orang-orang > > > pelbagai ugama, dan menjemput orang orang dari semua > > > kalangan masyarakat > > > menyertai covention itu. Presiden interfaith > > > committee tu, ialah seorang > > > melayu, bertitle Ir. Aku mula memikirkan, kalau si > > > Melayu ni, (I presume > > > he is a muslim) boleh buat convention kat gereja tu, > > > ada ke dia buat > > > something yang sebegitu di masjid di kariah dia, or > > > bcos he spends so > > > much time with the interfaith committee (since he is > > > the president) he > > > rarely or never have time to do anything at the > > > masjid or even go to > > > the masjid. > > > > > > Baru baru ni juga aku pergi kat satu tempat kat PD. > > > Kat situ, ada satu > > > bekas perkampongan orang orang Melayu juga yang > > > mengamalkan ajaran Islam > > > ikut sesedap rasa dia. Mengikut keterangan guide aku > > > tu, pengikut pengikut > > > ugama tu, boleh berkahwin sesama adik beradik > > > sendiri dan mereka juga ada > > > surau tempat bersembahyang dan ada juga colok dan > > > bekas kemenyan kat batu > > > besar. Dalam hati aku berkata, kalau dah nak sembah > > > batu, kenapa nak ada > > > surau? Orang orang ni nampaknya keliru, macam mana > > > nak praktikkan pegangan > > > ugama dia orang. Nak solat macam orang Islam tu ke, > > > atau nak pasang colok > > > dengan kemenyan sembah batu besar kat tepi pokok tu? > > > Kalau dah boleh kahwin > > > sesama adik beradik sendiri, buat apa susah payah > > > nak kena nikahkan. itu > > > adalah antara perangai perangai pelik sesetengah > > > orang Melayu. Dari > > > peringkat > > > tinggi, berpelajaran dan perpangkat tinggi, sampai > > > ke peringkat rendah tak > > > berpelajaran dan tak berpangkat, sedang orang di > > > tempat lain bermatian > > > matian > > > mempertahankan syiar Islam, di sini ada pulak yang > > > bersusah payah nak tukar > > > ugama dari Islam jadi kafir. > > > > > > From the short encounter with the lawyer, I deduced > > > that, kebelakangan ni > > > sesetengah orang melayu yang agaknya muslim, are > > > becoming the champions of > > > many matters. Tapi champion dalam hal nak > > > melingkupkan ugama dan bangsa > > > sendiri. Dalam hal hal sebegini, tak banyak yang > > > pihak berkuasa boleh buat. > > > The judiciary system in Malaysia is based on "Common > > > Law" atau yang terguna > > > pakai di England. Walaupun kita dah 47 tahun > > > merdeka, pemikiran orang > > > Melayu masih lagi dijajah, dan tak lama lagi akan > > > dijajah semula tapi kali > > > ni secara sukarela pulak apabila orang melayu yang > > > asalnya Islam, mohon > > > nak tukar ugama jadi kristian, jadi hindu, jadi > > > atheist, sembah pokok, > > > sembah batu dan segala amalan karut marut lain > > > selain dari jadi Islam yang > > > menjanjikan Syurga kepada penganutnya. > > > > > > Kepada saudara saudara sekelian, renung > > > renungkanlah....... > > > > > > Wassalam, 2nd part penulis email ni ade sebut psl seorang muslim yg murtad dan jadi spokeperson dlm convention kat london. aku ade link utk speech wanita murtad ni.so aku rasa ade eloknya aku attach skali link ni utk kekawan yg tak tau kes ni.utk jadi bukti betapa fitnah yg ditakuti oleh Nabi Muhammad telah berleluasa skang ni. http://www.gnwidegroup.com/hasnah/hasnah.htm aku harap kekawan kite bleh forward kan email ni supaya lebih ramai lagi tahu dan dgr sendiri bukti mengenai kes hasnah ni. nauzubillah min zaalik

entahla. sbenarnya tak ada mood nak tulis ni sbb dah pukul lima pg n aku masih tak tido, inilah akibatnya kalau bz n tak sempat nak bukak email sampai berpuluh2 dlm inbox. tu pun aku masih malas nak baca. last week, dalam sejarah kali kedua aku bkubang kat library. mmg bukan tempat aku. first of all, aku akan slalu tgk org yg masuk lib, klau org tu aku kenal, aku akan borak atau kacau org tu. kedua, kalau tak ada yg aku kenal masuk, then aku akan mula mengantuk and takle nak concentrate. ketiga, aku jenis yg kena baca kuat2 tok faham apa yg aku baca,kat library kena hush2 n whisper ala2 romantic gitu, jadiknya aku mgantuk lagi..haha tapi disebabkan mooting, nak tak nak there was i, without fail bmukim kat library.buat rsearch tapi arguments tak paham2 gak. the day b4 nak moot baru really understood the thing. gile ke ape? tp lega benda tu dah habis, skang nak concentrate on finals. tapi aku ingat baru nak berehat tetibe kena balik uia sbb ada meeting agm, tu la ngada2 sgt nak jadi committee, tp takpela, nak buat mcm mane.. emm.. pasal agm gak, aku pun mcm tak caya yg aku btanding. am i doing the right thing here? after all, it has been three years i have been fighting for the law students' right but somehow i cud never do it alone, skang ni org mletakkan kepercayaan, tu yg lagi takut tu.bole ke aku mrealisasikan impian mereka. aku takut nanti mereka akan kecewa.tapi aku mmg ada impian untuk memajukan budak2 law, bukan dari segi pelajaran je tp dr segi pr dan perhubungan sesame manusia. graduan kita slalu dilabelkan introvert so it is high time that we do somethin' to change that perception and prove ourselves. and as sir budiman kata to our mooting class, if we keep up with the standard that we are in now, n try to improve a little more, insya-Allah, org akan respect dgn graduan law dr uia. takpela kalau aku tak buat change kat law society yg penting, i am making a change here at home.ape2 yg aku buat akan affect family aku so therefore i'm already making changes, cukupla setakat sewa cd tok tampung blanja sket2 walaupun tak cukup. the change that i make? tak payah mintak duit slalu sgt kat parents aku, n dieorg pun takyah risau n mbebankan diri nak cari duit utk aku. tu yg nak jual kuih tok raya ni,nak cari duit lebih, hopefully laku. namun, disebalik segala dugaan yg kami sekeluarga hadapi tahun ni, Allah sentiasa murahkan rezeki kami dgn kehadiran org baru. believe me it never stops. last year, alysya came into the family, this year it was nadiah n insya-Allah, another one next year.. another thing that i am alwiz grateful of, is that i am surrounded by friends who love me. that has helped me a lot in facing all the obstacles in my life. u guys , fad n aliza especially are my torch!!

holidays...

haha, it's great that finally the holidays are greeting me. i really need a break badly.most of my tests are over except 4 company law n client counselling finals 4 mooting class. after 2 weeks of finishing with my hectic schedule(millef), i actually had some space to breath. the week after i finished millef, i was again running off 2 finish my assignments.then had a test to cover.but the second week was the most trying(not da others aren't but note 'the most'). not only tht i had 3 major tests(don't even mention how i did for all those tests, that is another story all together) but with all the lectures tht we had to attend, tutorials which consists of doing tons of assignments.and plus i had to juggle that n the fact tht my dad was again readmitted to da hosp for some operations.to my certain friends, hope tht all of us will be strong in facing the test that has been given to us. we have realized our mistake n had apologized sincerely n accordingly n if we are not forgiven is because someone is selfish n immature. n if the situation remains the same then we are no longer at fault n shud not be blamed. this is been said after much discussion and matured thinking with some friends who are involved. on friday, after an exaustive n trying week, my friends n i made some plan to go out n exchange our much belated birthday presents. but due to some changes they cud not make it. as i really needed some time off, i decided to go out alone. n i am glad tht i made tht decision. i drove all the way 2 O.U, feling a little glad n free, n after 5 hours spending time all by myself, i found it truly remarkable n refreshing.had missed tht feeling for quite some time. all i did was catch a movie(catwoman,was good), n spend plenty2 of time shopping alone. later visited my dad n spent 3 hours with him. it really gave me a relief feeling. i came back tht nite, just in time to change b4 heading out 4 my client counselling practice with adib supervised by sir budiman.it was really unexpected when when we were commented tht we had not missed out a single structure n had divided our parts perfectly.n to top it off, sir said tht we were the best team 4 tht nite so far. u cud only imagine how adib n i felt at tht moment. amazingly proud n glad for ourselves. bukan nak perasan tp just happy tht we did well. i was so thankful that after all tht i hv been thru tht week,tht day had paid off all my sufferings n pain tht i had 2 go thru' for the week. in one day i had managed sucessfully to make myself very happy n confident, fulfilling my responsibility as a daughter n pleasing my lecturer. this is the sweetest gift Allah have bestowed upon me after this week's TESTS. as aliza said to me there is a hikmah over what has happened, n now i am proud n grateful to say that i have witnessed that beauty. PRAISE TO ALLAH!! ALLAHUAKBAR!!

lately, there are many things bothering my mind. i can't even recall the last time that my head was not filled with some work that need to be done. honestly, almost a month now in this semester, i feel like i really2, desperately need a break. it's unbelievable how third year is torturing u. i mean with all the things that we have to do for tutorials like sketches, debates, n bla2. mmglah it's going to benefit us in the future but sketches? though it's fun but actually it takes most of ur time, frm arranging meetings with group members to actually attending those discussions...arghh..then kena buat research lg, pastu bile dah buat penat2 tetibe tak cukup time, is it not wasting? but on another view, trying to rationalize here, it's true in the outside world. kite dah penat2 buat docs tp kalau salah takle submit kat ct, kena balik betulkan. dahla kena marah kat ct pastu balik kat office kena marah lagi gan bos. so anyway, if the docs are submitted but due to some technical problems then the case will be strike off by the judge n once again our hard work n effort is wasted. so ppl who are in the third year just bear with what we have to do right now, but with a few adjustments frm the lecturer won't hurt either. p/s: i don't know how i can cope with millef(pr central), closing ceremony(involved with performance), then classes n tutorials..cc competition...my dad being unwell(in the hosp)...n i had to quit convest...god, give me will n strength n energy!!

CONFIDENCE TEST

The Confidence Test hida, your confidence level is high As a result, you may tend view yourself as a wonderful, lucky, or energized person. However you probably also have your days when you don't feel so hot. After all, you're only human. Because of your usual high level of self-acceptance and belief in yourself, you're generally open and accepting of others. People who come in contact with you likely appreciate this generous nature and may seek out your company. Your social ability seems to be the trait that you most value in yourself of the five main traits that affect confidence. You also seem to appreciate this characteristic in others.

do i follow my heart or my head?

Heart-Strong Idealist You're an impassioned individual who just can't suppress your ideals. You've got a strong sense of right and wrong, and want to let people know when they've crossed the line. Sure, there are times when you sit back to hear both sides of an argument. But people had better stay out of the way when your fiery passions take hold. But just because you can be a bit of a rebel with a cause, it doesn't mean you're incapable of being understanding and compassionate. It's because you're so invested in your ideas and interests that you can work so tirelessly toward your goals and speak up for what you believe in. So keep pouring your heart into it. With conviction like yours, you're sure to succeed!

sem baru

ni dah masuk hari kelima aku telah menjejakkan kaki di bumi uia ni. and dlm masa lima hari dah bjuta benda aku dah buat. maybe to some others the reopening of sem is something that they are not looking forward to, compared to me who have been staying at home for almost 4 months. i admit, i was also not to keen of coming here, maybe bcoz the thought of repacking n unpacking n cleaning up my room makes me feel a little hesitant to come here.yelah, with all the dust n dirt, mind u i am highly allergic to it(i'll get a terrible flu almost all the time). but to be honest, i am really looking forward to this sem. what more with being in third year, maybe there is a sense of seniority, then with tons of programmes to look forward to, i am ready to study n have fun at the same time too... hope to my dearest friends yg still feeling sad and down, i pray that soon i can share this semester's excitement with all of u. don't feel sad, eh..just let the past go away n enjoy the remaining days that we still have in our lives as we will never know what might come our way. p/s:loving Allah more n more each day.

2ND PART OF ATTACHMENT

okla, ari tu aku dah tulis pasal the first part of my attachment, now i shall continue with the second part. the first day which i thought was the worst day turned out to be one of the best i have had in my life. it started with me being quite late.tak berape clear sgt kepale due 2 sleeping quite late the day b4, so lps subuh, terus sbg tido.ingatkan nak bgn kul 7.30 am tp tbgn 8.20 am n i was supposed 2 be at work at around 8.30 though i was hardly punctual the week b4,hehe. kul 8.30 am baru siap mandi n mar dah call,gelabah gile aku masa tu. dgn tudung tak gosok lg masa tu.ingatkan nak ponteng je rase tp mmikirkan that week we were attached to the ct, i decided against it. so i asked mar not to wait for me. dgn nak cepatnya, gosok tudung pun tah ape2 tah, n breakfast pun tak sempat terus blah. luckily my house is not that far frm ct, only 7 mins.tp tkejut gile bile sampai which was already 8.45 am. sepanjang jln tu penuh gan keta sampai hujung jln, n both sides plak tu.aku pun kena park my car quite far n had 2 walk up all the way to the ct. i arrived exactly at 9 am. i was so scared coz mar dah masuk ct, n i don't know which ct i am assigned to, which means that i have to see tuan.grr..takutnye. pastu gan muka yg amat gelabah, aku pun cepat2 gi bgn civil registry where his room is situated. kat situ,blambak lawyers waiting to submit their docs. i juz couldn't wait coz proceedings are going 2 start at 9am. i was so panicked tp buat cool je. akupun slambe masuk tpt office which is strictly not permitted 4 lawyers(only staff). lawyers only get 2 be the max is at the counter, 2 yg tuan dok ingatkan kat kitaorg supaya take the opportunity now to really go thru the files n doc.(masa masuk tu nampak privilege sgt coz pakai black n white tp dpt masuk, da lawyers were all looking). back 2 my story, tanya kak lia about tuan, tuan lak takde kat bilik. terus aku bgegas gi ct 4 where mar is assigned to.dahla tingkat7, tp hehe, tak naik tangga but lift.then nasib baik ct xstart lg proceedings, so aku pun gi kat mar, ingatkan nak join rupenye seats kat dpn tu dah penuh(seats yg tempatkan jurubahasa),yg uia slalu panggil bailiff.(we'll get back to the terms later).pastu aku pun lgla tak tau nak buat ape. decided nak tgk frm public gallery but then takut nnt tuan marah. skali fate, tetibe nampak tuan br kuar so aku pun kejar die. had 2 explain myself, luckily he was not that angry so die pun attached aku wif mar but when i told the situation, he brought me 2 ct 2(criminal ct). masa tu tak perasan lg judge 4 that ct is datuk ideres rapee(sape yg tak tau, he was the judge yg presided canny ong's case). aku pun slambe je masuk ikut tuan, tak taula plak die nak introduce aku kat judge, actually more of minta izin to follow the proceedings.this comes the BEST PART bcoz he actually invited me to join him in his chambers which i must tell u is VERY2 RARE. tuan dah nak blah tetibe datuk kata "marilah masuk skali, karang org kata saya nak mgurat die plak(refering 2 me)" tuan pun serba salah tp masuk gak pastu datuk kata lg "ala, nak ngurat ape awak ni baya anak saya" sambil gelak. aku pun senyum je. so for the next 15 mins while waiting for some witnesses to come, we had a chat. he asked me questions n i asked him some inquries too. he was very open n friendly(humble n down to earth, i must say),VERY2 HUMBLE N DOWN 2 EARTH N FUNNY TOO!!! best sgt, he shared some of his experience n gave me tons of advice. only god knows how lucky i felt at that moment. dah abis borak, coz kena start proceeding, it was gettin late almost 9.40, so i excused myself frm his chambers with tuan. tuan pun thought that i was very lucky to have had that chance. i really must say that, that experience is very INVALUABLE p/s: anak die sume guys,haha,around my age???twinkle*** sorg blaja kat uitm.anyway about the real term for bailiff(which is widely being used in uia, it's actually jurubahasa or interpreter,n bailiif is actually the ppl who auctions those unwanted exhibits to public). to be continued

entahla

malas betul rasenye nak balik uia..i really don't know why i feel this way. well i guess it's understandable. i mean i've been home for almost four months. i almost forgot how is campus life is. really, i barely can remember.... help me, malasnye nak pack.....

ATTACHMENT

Esok last day aku keja kat shah alam h.ct. tak tau nak rasa ape, rase sedih pun ada, rase lega pun ada. Maybe sbb dah tak larat lagi kot. Kitaorg keja 10 days, many things we have gained there. Tak tcerita smuanya tp nakla share sket experience. Mar pun ada tulis gak dlm blog die pasal our adventure kat sane, sedikit sbyk korg can get the general idea, bacelah blog die, cewah promote lak. Tapi aku pun ade version aku though the environment is the same. 1st DAY kitaorg dtg n tconggok depan civil registry kat shah alam h.ct, bgn sayap kiri pg2 lg.(mcm parti politik plak). Pastu ptemuan sekian lama, mbuahkan hasil iaitu gosip2 tbaru yg hangat di pasaran uia, dah lama tak keep up, hehe. Smua tunggu tuan yg garang, takut nak masuk sampai dpt arahan. Akhirnya, penantian yg ditunggu sekian lama tjadi gak. Malangnya kitaorg tak bwk blazer n xle ditempatkan di ct, so jadik freelance, tgk kes2 frm the public gallery, did not enjoy the experience. Bosan..so gi subang parade nak carik blazer. Muna n kaot balik uia, amik blazer. Mar yg beli, aku tgk je, hehe 2nd DAY aku siap pakai black n white, ala2 gaya lawyer betul with my black long skirt n white blouse, tetibe ct xde prosiding coz ct vacation. Tpaksela keja kat bgn docs n civil registry(processing n fixing). Dahla aku pakai baju black n white, org lain sempoi je pakai baju kurung(staff), so I really look ackward. Even lawyers yg dtg pun asyik tgk je..pastu blur tak tau nak buat ape, mintak kakak kat bgn tu bg keja. Aku pun buat la keja dgn tekunnya, bgn bankrapsi..memule sblm mintak keja, duduk tmenung main phone depan fail2 yg btimbun. Byk betul kes yg ttunggak..abg kat sblh aku tu plak asyik mgacau aku, kalo tak tido, myoal aku mcm2(mcm private investigator plak), tak larat nak layan, kalo tak, die scrutinize ape yg aku pakai n buat, rimas betul la…sambil buat keja, aku ada gak try2 nak baca docs , ikut advice ira tp xphm, yela xblaja lg kan. nak tanya malu sbb smua nampak bz except abg kat sblh aku…kul 4 confident je dah abis keja, ajak mar n kaot gi jumpa tuan, dah kena marah tak baca docs n tanya kat staff. Kitaorg pun balik n try blaja, aku n kaot buat2 baca docs sambil grumbling(we were not informed, blur la kan). Mar dah bz btanya dah… 3rd DAY best sket sbb buat kat atas, power attorney. Dpt kenal gan k.azrah(jurubahasa datuk ideres), k.anem, n abg hashim. Keja xbyk tp cop2la.aku bz betul amik nota n btanya.yela, smlm tak tanya kan so esok tu aku tanyala puas2 sampai kak anem tu irritated coz I asked too much, hehe. Abg hashim asyik suruh aku senyum je, aku pun xphm, buat keja mestila serius kan? Nnt org kata SS, syok sendiri, hehe. aku pun nak jadik budak baikla kan, so kul 4 tu aku turun nak photostate some docs yg nak blaja(takkan nak salin all those agreements)n bla,bla.. tetibe tuan dtg n marah. Muna slambe je, aku yg tkebil2(speechless). Geram betul aku kat tuan, smlm suruh blaja, bile nak blaja nak kena bayar plak siap buat lakonan smula dlm otak, ish..tak baik. Tuan tak garang sbenarnya, maybe aku je yg xphm niat die, confuse sket… 4th DAY ni plg best sbb aku dpt duduk kat tpt call2, mcm receptionist plak, tp tak call pun, hehe. susun docs ikut nom, blaja kes mane yg dipindahkan ke ct ape..etc. Mentor aku, abg amin kena gi meeting, so aku pun mrayapla kacau muna n kaot. Sblm tu nak cite, abg amin tu ckp pun aku xdgr, perlahan gile, kalo cal lawyer suruh amik doc pun slow sgt. aku pun saje je jahat buat2 xdgr, terus volume die on, hehe. last2 mar, aku n kaot gi jln2 tgk ct proceedings with tuan’s permission. Muna xikut coz byk keja. ptg aku nak sambung keja which is call2, tp phone kena amik sbb dieorg nak test internet line(baru nak install). Mine u, the system is still filing n not computerized. Aku pun bosan, sambil borak n bloyar buruk gan abg amin, aku susun fail n cuba mmahami what the ct staffs are going thru’. Take note it is not easy to process all those docs n fulfill the needs of at least 4000 applications per day. N that is only for one department. imagine four?? Mostly laywers are not likeable, no offence but some do come with attitude probs. Taula nak cepat but they(da staff) are working their best n at their optimum level(quoting judge datin paduka zaleha’s words to me n some lawyers).she was explaining some things to lawyers so that they will understand the ct’s prob. Pastu borak gan kat siti, more enlightment about certain lawyer’s rude attitude n blaja kod2 mahkamah n saman pmula n stuff… 5th DAY ingat kena gi tpt civil, tetibe tuan suruh blaja criminal. Aku duduk gan k.lia yg cun wif mar n muna n kaot duduk gan abg khairol a.k.a abg vest, haha. Byk pasal kes criminal n docs. N dapat tgk pics arwah noor suzaily, sedih sgt, I almost cried. Kejam betul si hanafi tu..ARGHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! byk gak kitaorg blaja kat situ, mcm2 kes(baca blog mar), cewah promote lagik..yg tak sanggup baca testi budak india yg nampak arwah masa she was in the bus crying for help. When I read it, I can’t imagine the kid’s feelings. Sure helpless sbb tak dapat tlg n found out that she ended up dead. Ptg gi tgk kes2 kat ct lagik… ……… to be continued

POEM WRITTEN IN FRIENDSTER BULLETIN BOARD

there is nothing more beautiful, than having this friendship that we share, though i am very grateful, the thought of losing u i can't bear. how i cheerish those times n moment, when we would share jokes n laughter, those times i would treasure n put in my heart to remember. we will be friends forever, through the ups and down of life, together we will venture, the true meaning of being alive. here you and me, forever friends we will be, nothing will keep us apart, you are too special in my heart. i will always be there for you, sharing all that u go thru', or even when u feel blue.. we are good friends till whenever, that i will always remember... created personally by: HiDa

dedicated to someone special

together you and me, good friends we used to be, we used to joke, laugh and teased each other, friends till the end forever. but then i made a mistake by giving you a letter, and i cannot take back what i did, no matter. look at what i have gained, nothing but just sheer pain, nothing could change what i've done, weeks have turned into months, just hope that we could restore, the frienship that we had before.

malasnye nak balik uia

actually, i've been moping around the house since march. i really can't imagine how am i going to face a day filled with classes. the very thought of having to wake up early, ironing my clothes n get ready to class has already made me yawning. am i a lazy bum?probably. i mean after all, i am so used to waking up not that early n doing the daily routines which i shall not mention here. god, give me strength to face all my friends, lecturers, the gruelling hours of lectures, the torturing moments of tutorials.arghh... despite that, however i am amazed to say that actually i miss all those activities which means that now i have something to look forward to, such as exams??? n not tv shows???arghhh... p/s: grateful to be a student

american idol? m'sian idol? did they sto the war? IDOL?

talkin once again about american idol, malaysia has also created the exact entertainment show which in now busy touring around malaysia to find those who are interested to be in the show. but once again i was struck by the word idol.is it that easy to be an idol? it may seem clear to everbody that it is the singing competition that will eventually determine whether u are a star or not. but with deeper observation, the words used are something else. it is true that once u win or probably juz be in the top 12,u will have ur own fans n stardom but i wonder why is everybody esp m'sians here are so eager to be the next popstar n to be idolized by their voices instead of their contibutions to the country, the nation, and religion n be a real m'sian idol in the truest sense. p/s: i wonder how come ppl like those uitm students who climbed mount. everest didn't get as much attention as this m'sian idol. see how the west has once again succeeded in making this show into one of the most watched singing competition.when will we have our own original n successful educatonal but yet entertaining shows? i wonder...

copy-cats

skang ni american idol dah habis. dah tau pmenangnye is fantasia barrino. well, i think that she deserves to win. after all her performance was great. talking about american idol, it's funny seeing that now in m'sia, most tv shows are also creating shows somewhat like american idol though in a different version.take for example audition, the really latest copy-cat entertainment show. why are they competing? back to this audition show, it is somewhat a combination of akademi fantasia version n american idol. by showing their routines n practices it is something like akademi fantasia, then the last lowest three must perform b4 being voted off is definitely american idol's version.then raja azura will make this sympathetic voice exactly like aznil in a.f juz to make the audience feel a little emotional.god, can't they have their own identity? well, who am i to judge cause i know out there,there are still many ppl watchin' n enjoying da show, not to forget vote as well. p/s: the acting is quite original though...