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lyrics of a song by christina aguilera

THE VOICE WITHIN Young girl don't cry I'll be right here when your world starts to fall Young girl it's alright Your tears will dry, you'll soon be free to fly When you're safe inside your room you tend to dream Of a place where nothing's harder than it seems No one ever wants or bothers to explain Of the heartache life can bring and what it means Chorus: When there's no one else, look inside yourself Like your oldest friend just trust the voice within Then you'll find the strength that will guide your way You'll learn to begin to trust the voice within Young girl don't hide You'll never change if you just run away Young girl just hold tight Soon you're gonna see your brighter day Now in a world where innocence is quickly claimed It's so hard to stand your ground when you're so afraid No one reaches out a hand for you to hold When you look outside look inside to your soul Chorus Life is a journey It can take you anywhere you choose to go As long as you're learning You'll find all you'll ever need to know (Be strong) You'll break it (Hold on) You'll make it Just don't forsake it because No one can tell you what you can't do No one can stop you, you know that I'm talking to you Chorus Young girl don't cry I'll be right here when your world starts to fall

KEKASIHKU… I LOVE YOU!!

A’KUM, Nak share tentang KEKASIH aku? (aku type huruf besar tu sbb aku terlampau sayang sgt kat DIA). Penyayang sifatnya. Betul ni….tak tipu punye! Pure cinta lah nak dikategorikan tu. Apa taknya masa aku susah, minta tolong sajalah pd DIA. Sure akan dtg bantuan. Bila aku susah hati, bole terus ngadu kat DIA direct! Yg bestnye tu, bila aku dah ngadu kat DIA, terase peace aje. For surelah…KEKASIH kan! …ish …beruntung betul dapat KEKASIH cam ni. Tak pernah nak sakitkan hati aku. Bile2 masa jer aku bole contact DIA. Yg seronok tu mmg betul rasa DIA tu dekaaat kat hati ni!. Ye laa…cinta punya psl kan…DIA x kisah pon kalo aku x ingat kat DIA, tp rugilah aku, sbb kalo aku ingat n contact jer DIA, sure macam2 la yg aku dapat. X kirelah, material ke …spiritual ke…emm..mmg KEKASIH sejatilah tu! Bila aku rindu kat DIA, baca jer surat2 yg DIA bagi tu. Macam2 nasihat ada dlm tu. Siap bg example lagi nak suruh aku faham. Sblm ni, aku pernah gak frust. Mmg sedih giler la masa tu. Ye laa….cinta bagai nak rak, tetibe putus, clash gitu aje…wwaaa… Tp KEKASIH aku yg ni lain, DIA tak kisah pon dgn cerita aku frust tu. Siap bg semangat lagi. DIA xjeles pon, Cuma aku jer yg slalu jeles gan DIA, sbb ramai yg jatuh cinta gan DIA ni. So, aku pon kenalah usaha betul2 …kata org putih…what u give… u’ ll get back…so kalo aku usaha lebih sket, aku dapat lebihlah kan?... KEKASIH aku ni baik sesangat. Perfect! Tu yg kdg2 aku tgh2 malam… area kul 3-4 pg tu pon, kalo aku terjaga, aku sure akan contact DIA. Rindulah………!!! Sebenarnya KEKASIH aku ni kaya tau….millionaire….billionaire ntah ape naire lg. tu yg pemurah sgt tuh. Semua keperluan hidup aku, DIA yg support…caya tak??!!... Free of charge…. Tp aku x sedap hati laa… mestila kena hargai apa yg DIA bg tu kan?.. mak aku kata, kalo org dah bg, suke ke,x suke ke , amik ajela, pastu pepandailah nak membalas budi…..jadi, tu yg buat aku sanggup berkorban apa saja………..cewwaahh!!............DIA suruh aku blajar sungguh2...kalo bole blajar sumer ilmu…sbb KEKASIH aku ni mmg cerdik + bijak + genius….DIA kata, tanpa ilmu, setiap amal yg aku buat semua sia2. DIA pon makin saaayyyang kat aku kalo aku rajin blajar. Malu sebenarnya nak cakap ni …….tp aku belum pernah jumpa DIA lg pon. Belum bersedia la…. tp KEKASIH aku ni dah janji , satu hari nanti, mesti kami akan bertemu. Sekarang menghitung hari la aku ni…….. tp kecut perut gak...! takuuuuuut! Maklumlah….x pernah jumpe. Aku mesti prepare awal2 drpd surat2 yg ada tu,aku tahu apa yg DIA suka , dan apa yg DIA tak suka . mestila aku nak buat apa yg DIA suka , so that DIA tambah2 sayang la kat aku kan…?....Tak per lah ….. berkorban sekarang , sbb DIA dah janji, sape2 yg DIA sayang, DIA bg hadiah special yg aku sendiri x penah tpikir pon!.. Isssyhhh……Rindu sgt dah ni…..! “KEKASIH ku ….aku berjanji, aku akan pertahankan cinta suci ini….walau nyawa digalang gantikan, menggadaikan cinta teragung ini tidak sama sekali…..walaupun tak pernah berjumpa, aku tetap bahagia……Itulah KEKASIH ku …….ALLAH S.W.T ………. Cinta Teragungku ……….” hasil nukilan,seorg hamba Allah(sekadar bkongsi perasaan dengannya)

poem takde tittle

Andai kebahagiaan yang ku cari, mengapa derita jua yang datang, Selama ini kudambakan cinta, namun ia tidak pernah hadir. Adakah nasib diri yang malang atau jodoh yang masih belum ditemui, Adakah ini semua ketentuan Ilahi, andai benar aku redha. Semalam, aku termimpi lagi. Terimbau kembali kenangan lalu, Adakah ia memberi erti, Atau sekadar igauan ngeri Hidup sunyi tiada erti, Andai tiada kekasih hati, Andai dikau memahami, Luahan naluri ini, Sudikah kau menjadi penghuni, Kepada kamar hati yang sepi? Aku masih disini, Berdiri sepi menanti, Kehadiran kekasih yang diimpi, Namun aku masih sendiri 22 march 2004 7.30 pm

NOSTALGIA SEMALAM

Semalam, Ku miliki segalanya, Ku punyai dirimu, cintamu jua, Terasa dunia ini hanya aku yang punya Semalam, Kasih kita masih mewangi, Cinta kita masih abadi, Ikatan kita yang masih berseri, Hanya tinggal memori Semalam, Perlukah kau melukai hatiku, Dengan kata-kata dusta darimu, Lidah terasa kelu, bibir menjadi bisu, Titisan jernih mengalir laju Semalam, Tinggal sebuah kenangan, Hancur segala harapan, Berkecai segala impian, Putuslah sebuah ikatan Hari ini, Mimpi indah tiada lagi, Tawa, gurau senda lenyap, Dibawa angin sepi, Sesepi hatiku yang masih terluka, Kerana nostalgia semalam 3 NOVEMBER 2002 3.43 a.m

THE ONE

My boyfriend and I first communicated through the latest technology which was messages through mobile phones. It was a few months talking on the phone that we finally decided to meet. We were both pretty nervous and I almost ran away. Then the rest was history. He was not exactly the kind of guy I would date but at the age of eighteen, he was the first boyfriend I had in life. Therefore, I was grateful that someone would actually love me for who I am. He loved me for all the things that I am, loved me more than any guy I have known in my entire life. We had a very great relationship at first, and then we started having disagreements. It continued a few months later. I was always angry at him for not always making the calls. Calls were a big part in our relationship, this was due to the fact that we live far apart and hardly have the chance to meet. Soon the calls that used to connect us were not as frequent as before we were a couple. I started rethinking about our relationship which somehow had lost its shine. There was nothing wrong with him, my boyfriend. He was a wonderful, sweet and loving guy, but the problem lay in me. I could not lie to my heart, that deep down I knew he was not the one, the one guy that I can never really love with all my heart. Knowing that was the real problem, I knew the only solution was to let him go. My heart ached remembering the times and memories that both of us shared. He was my first boyfriend and the only guy bestfriend I ever had. We both cried when I ended our relationship. My heart broke knowing well that I have hurt him deeply. It hurt me too especially when he begged me to reconsider my decision. But I remained firm with my decision till today though I know that after almost three years, he still loves me. We are now good friends. He remained single and I still have not met “the one” but I’m sure someday I will. Who knows it was actually him that I was waiting for.

the real story behind this hols..

hida tau macam mana takutnya perasaan mati.byk benda hida blaja masa cuti ni.walaupun tak amik shortsem tp rasanya ilmu kat umah ni pun tak abis blaja.dugaan kali ni,spt yg sesape tau,kakak hida sakit,skang alhamdullillah dah sembuh.skang dah bsalin tp tibe2 ayah hida sakit.masa tu Allah je yg tau betapa hibanya perasaan kami sekeluarga. skang baru tau mhargai keluarga.bkn tak mhargai selama ni tp sekurang2nya tau sejauh mana pgorbanan mereka sbb skang kena bantu pikul tangungjawab itu. makin dewasa, makin kita sedar ttg pgorbanan org lain... ni dah masuk 2x hida jaga anak kakak2 hida dr umur sehari sampai abis pantang,bkn senang.wat susula, tukat diaper,mandi n lapkan,muak lg,pastu nak kena hayun nak tido.kakak sulung dulu,ibu byk tlg,tp skang bz kat hosp tgk ayah.jd hida kena tlg extra.tu pun ramai pembantu yg tlg.dulu kalau mak kita, mcm mana ye? bile kite beranak pun ibu kite yg jaga,terukkan kite,susahkan dia lg.. satu lg...bila sambut birthday asyik fikir ape hadiah yg dpt kali ni,tp lps tgk kakak bsalin, tpikir tak penah pun wish kat ibu thank you sbb susah lahirkan kita on that day. tp smua itu masih blm tlewat jika kita tsedar skang...