bored!!!

hehe...it's me again making another entry...well sbenarnya aku tgh bosan ni nak mnunggu bila nak buat final rehearsal tok drama competition malam ni..argh...tensionnya. byk benda je aku tension pasal drama thn ni, tak sama fun mcm tahun lepas..tp takle nak cite kat sini takut akan muguriskan perasaan org. masa raya ari tu, tanpa disangka2 kawan rapat aku masa ssp dulu dah pindah belajar kat uitm shah alam dari uitm jengka pahang. kalau tak pasal kad raya, mmg aku tak tau pkembangan cite die. tak sangka plak die myewa dekat betul gan umah aku, mmg jodoh. so when my kakngah invited her friends over for raya, aku ajaklah dia dtg skali. we had a blast. bayangkanla dah lima tahun tak jumpa, mmg rindu. now, we are keeping in touch n i am glad that we are still close as before. really, tak sangka yg she will be that close to me, i mean now we can meet up without any problems.really can't wait to get my loan so that aku bole lepak gan die every weekend. tapi itu the gd side of moving to shah alam, tp the sad part i had to leave my dearest friend maznifa. we can no longer hang out like we used to. kalau dulu, aku boring gi je umah dia n lepak dpn umah die, bborak2. skang ni gayut dlm fon je la. janji nak jumpa tp tak jumpa2 gak.sedih waa... ni smua faktor ptptn tak masuk lagi.. kawan2 aku yg dulu rapat masa matriks dulu pun aku dah okay balik gan dieorg. dulu mrajuk kejap sebab aku rase, aku je yg byk buat sacrifice for them. now, i have learned that i cannot put any expectation on them, moreover kitaorg pun ada life masing2. another thing yg aku risau ni, aku tak dapat lagi jawapan dari british council whether betul ke aku ni confirm nak gantikan one participant yg dah tarik diri. i really wanna go..frust gak masa dapat tau tak dapat pegi tp jadi reserve je tok youth camp tu. hopefully aku dapat join ira, mar n 7 more participants frm m'sia to indon next month for this youth camp.pray for me friends!and pray that somehow,we will bring something for mahalla tonight.