entahla. sbenarnya tak ada mood nak tulis ni sbb dah pukul lima pg n aku masih tak tido, inilah akibatnya kalau bz n tak sempat nak bukak email sampai berpuluh2 dlm inbox. tu pun aku masih malas nak baca. last week, dalam sejarah kali kedua aku bkubang kat library. mmg bukan tempat aku. first of all, aku akan slalu tgk org yg masuk lib, klau org tu aku kenal, aku akan borak atau kacau org tu. kedua, kalau tak ada yg aku kenal masuk, then aku akan mula mengantuk and takle nak concentrate. ketiga, aku jenis yg kena baca kuat2 tok faham apa yg aku baca,kat library kena hush2 n whisper ala2 romantic gitu, jadiknya aku mgantuk lagi..haha tapi disebabkan mooting, nak tak nak there was i, without fail bmukim kat library.buat rsearch tapi arguments tak paham2 gak. the day b4 nak moot baru really understood the thing. gile ke ape? tp lega benda tu dah habis, skang nak concentrate on finals. tapi aku ingat baru nak berehat tetibe kena balik uia sbb ada meeting agm, tu la ngada2 sgt nak jadi committee, tp takpela, nak buat mcm mane.. emm.. pasal agm gak, aku pun mcm tak caya yg aku btanding. am i doing the right thing here? after all, it has been three years i have been fighting for the law students' right but somehow i cud never do it alone, skang ni org mletakkan kepercayaan, tu yg lagi takut tu.bole ke aku mrealisasikan impian mereka. aku takut nanti mereka akan kecewa.tapi aku mmg ada impian untuk memajukan budak2 law, bukan dari segi pelajaran je tp dr segi pr dan perhubungan sesame manusia. graduan kita slalu dilabelkan introvert so it is high time that we do somethin' to change that perception and prove ourselves. and as sir budiman kata to our mooting class, if we keep up with the standard that we are in now, n try to improve a little more, insya-Allah, org akan respect dgn graduan law dr uia. takpela kalau aku tak buat change kat law society yg penting, i am making a change here at home.ape2 yg aku buat akan affect family aku so therefore i'm already making changes, cukupla setakat sewa cd tok tampung blanja sket2 walaupun tak cukup. the change that i make? tak payah mintak duit slalu sgt kat parents aku, n dieorg pun takyah risau n mbebankan diri nak cari duit utk aku. tu yg nak jual kuih tok raya ni,nak cari duit lebih, hopefully laku. namun, disebalik segala dugaan yg kami sekeluarga hadapi tahun ni, Allah sentiasa murahkan rezeki kami dgn kehadiran org baru. believe me it never stops. last year, alysya came into the family, this year it was nadiah n insya-Allah, another one next year.. another thing that i am alwiz grateful of, is that i am surrounded by friends who love me. that has helped me a lot in facing all the obstacles in my life. u guys , fad n aliza especially are my torch!!