back to holidays

haha, tak sangka that my mother was just laughing out when i told her that i appeared in the magazine besides ct nurhaliza. my family which includes my sisters n my brother in-laws were really laughing out loud. so u see the going to klia become a non- issue at all. except my dad who were quite not as excited as the rest, i guess to him i would still be his little daughter that he worries. even my sisters who are practically mothers now get the same worried face frm my father if they come back late frm work. i don't blame him, after all there are just too many bad ppl nowdays. they celebrated my belated birhtday tonight. funny as it is, but at this age, i am not that eager to celebrate birthdays anymore, just so long as they remember me in their prayers, but come to think of it, their presents shud not go to waste either,hehe.. finally, the internet at home is working. it wud have been really tormenting for me as i spent half of my life online, i wouldn't know what to do if there wasn't any good shows on tv, this is where i resort to and if it was not working??? but thankfully it is. felt good just now talking to lia, it has been quite some time since we had a proper chat..and then my ex gave me a call. felt really bad, did something to hurt his feeling. but i never intended it. why is it so hard to be friends when everything is over between u and him?? i mean i really thought he has moved on, he even has a new girlfriend so why is he still hoping for me??arghh..