I really hate it when I have done writing down everything for my new entry but then suddenly it just dissapears..ARGHHHHH....... Anyway, the life dull begins, or I thought so but no I was wrong. Actually I am enjoying this semester more than ever. The thing that is so ironic is that this is the first time that I decided to take any classes during the short semester. All these years, I have fulfilled the duty of a good sister.Both my sisters have been planning to give birth during my 3 months break and I might say that it is a success till now. You see they plan it every year when they want to get pregnant and also give birth which happens to be in the short sem. They take turns you know, amazing isn't it? This is the third year, and it's now kaklong's turn again. The reason is that so I can take care of them or the baby. However, while waiting for her due date, I decided to take classes anyway. After all, this is my final year.Unbelievable.. Last week was one of the best weeks that I ever had in life. I was in Midvalley every single day since Tuesday catching up movies. They had some Holland movie festivals, thus Nadia n I couldn't miss it. We only however managed to catch only two movies and they were great and superb. Regretted that I cudn't watch all as I was running a tight budget but all in all, it was really fun. Phew, all the money. Impressive that I could watch four movies straight in a week. Then the four of us, Fad, Nadia, Atie n I enjoyed the International Music Festival in Istana Budaya last Wednesday. It was really entertaining. Luckily the admission was free. This week's project is to catch the movie ' Tentang Dia' which is long over dued. The reason was because my bestfriend and I planned to watch it last Wednesday but as there were changes of plan we watched ' In Good Company' instead. But it is okay. Thus I'm trying to catch it this week. Then I must go and watch my dear friend Baki act in the play tittled TARTUFFE in Actors Studio in Bangsar. I've been dying to watch him act, though the ticket is rather expensive but on the account of friends, what is a little money?? Next week is my first test and I'm not sure of what I have studied so far.. blame it on the movies.. Another thing that adds to my happiness is that my aunts are all busy inviting our families and cousins to their house every week. Really happy to see them. Been missing them for quite some time. Guess now that we are meeting up quite frequent, the more gossips I can scoop, yippie!! Just like the old days.. p/s: I have put some new pictures on my picture gallery. I'll put more asap. For the time being,check it out!!

WHAT DEGREE IS FIT FOR ME???

MY RESULTS: A degree in Business and Marketing is right for you If there's one thing you want from your future, it's to be in charge of it. While you're happy to hear what others think, you usually have a clear plan for all of the things you want. And once you've made up your mind, it's not easy to get you off that path. You're a smooth operator who gets along well with people, but you also make sure that everyone knows exactly what you think.

My comment: emm now i really have to rethink about my law degree. Come to think of it, i do have a bussiness mind(as I quote frm my roomates, K.Wati n Maz " Hida ni semua benda nak buat bussiness". Them commenting on me as I planned to sell cookies to making sandwiches to selling magazines n to selling everything that is in our room to turn it into a bussiness. so far I only managed to have a vcd renting bussiness.

On a second note, MARKETING??? Is that why I am always known as the promoter of everything. I managed to be the PUBLICITY AND PROMOTION COMMITTEE almost for all programs.REAL TALENT ON THAT, I MUST SAY!!hehe

ARE YOU FIT TO COMMIT??

THE RESULTS FOR ME!!!

hida, you're fit to commit because you know what you want You don't need us to tell you that you're on the right track. A cool and confident person, you know what you want; now it's just a matter of finding it. Even more important, you know that love is about much more than what kind of clothes they wear or car they drive. And you're ready to make it work.You've gotten to a place where you are happy with your life, and you're ready to share it with someone special. So whether you've found them or are still looking, know that this time, you'll get what you want.

DEDICATED ESPECIALLY FOR MAR

There has been much emotions for the past week. Since the beginning of holidays, I have been helping Mar out for her wedding. Before that she officially appointed me as her brides maid. I felt shocked and honoured at the same time.

The days past by and yet there were so many things to do. Poor Mar as she didn't have the time before as she was having her finals.

We tried to do as many things possible, to trying out her wedding outfit, finding the suitable tudungs(scarfs), then makeup search and the makeup tryout at the Bobbi Brown beauty parlour to her Mak Usu testing it on her, then went to search her wedding body treatment such as spa, mandi lulur, does that mean sauna(not sure) n manicure.Phew, I think I sure do know now what really are the preparations to a wedding(all just for a day occasion which leads to a lifetime), though both my older sisters are already married.(did not go through the process with them).

Then finally, the big day came. By the time that I came to her house, she was already dressed n ready. She whispered to me saying that she was nervous. For the first time, after 2 weeks of her wedding preparations, did she felt that way. All week long, every time I asked her, she would say that she didn't feel nervous, that she felt normal(as in not nervous).She even said that she had no feelings(it must be due to the exaustion that she felt 4 the preparations).It really made me think about the transition that she has to go through in a matter of hours only.

The night before her aqad(the solemnization of the marriage), I kept thinking that tomorrow, Mar would not longer be our single carefree friend. She can no longer hang-out with me as much as I like her to. We can no longer meet for long hours and just chat about how life would turn out to be,we can no longer browse books too long at the MPH like we used to or even just hang-out at Giant n then run back in after going out just to discover that she or me has left something(THAT HAPPENS ALMOST ALL THE TIME), I can no longer go to her room in college n just watch vcd and hv an overnight there as well.I can no longer just call her at the middle of the night to ask her something,or to just ask whether she has studied for the coming test the next day, I can no longer have ice- creams treats with her,she would no longer drop by my house to get some things frm me(she's moving to Gombak)and many other things that I am definitely gonna miss about her.

Muna, Kauthar, Bibah n I and the rest of her friends who went to her aqad went through these emotions. To many, I'm sure all of u share the same feelings as well. Our tears welled up hearing Mar's father's speech to Munawar. It was words of a father that love his daughter dearly and was trying to tell everybody that he is finally letting go of his beloved daughter to another person's hand,love,care and affection. The transition would mean that Munawar will then take the responsibility of Mar's future in his hands. It was words of trust.The most touching part was when her father described how her parents with all weaknesses had brought Mar up with all the essential Islamic values, from which verse and chapter of the holy Al-Quran, Mar's name was extracted which means 'THE BLESSED'. He also mentioned that to honour the meaning of Mar's name, the presence of Mar in her family has alwiz been blessed and is a source of happiness to both her parents and her siblings.The words used by Mar's father was the one that touched us the most.

It was hard for me to digest that Mar now belongs to someone else. That person would have all rights on her, he will have the responsibility to protect her,take care of her n would lead her life n her future.

But as soon as I saw the big smile, the grin, the glow on her face, I am now crying with happiness for her. The way they firmly held each other's hands, looked at each other, the way they teased each other n the way Mar pretended to be annoyed but she was not, I know now for sure that she's in safe hands n this has always been meant to be.

Mar you have made me cried once, and now after 2 years, you made me cry again. Crying of joy for your blessed happiness and marriage.

I will alwiz treasure the moments that we have shared together, though our special friendship was not free from some harsh obstacles, but we made it through. I will alwiz reminisce the sweet memories...especially the year that we without fail would go to Ct's confectionary everyday n get an almond bar each n will get frustrated if it's finished, and we promised that the next day that we will come earlier so that we will not miss it again.

Thanks Mar for being such a wonderful friend. I pray that all your dreams will come through and your marriage will always be blessed and may you and Munawar will always cherish and love each other until death set you both apart.By hving you in my life, you've touched my heart in so many ways,you've changed me to be a better person and finally Mar, I am very grateful and lucky to have a special friend like you.

Here are some words I would like to share with all of you:

" You get your I/C when you are 12, you can start to drive when you are 17,you are a Major when you are 18,you get to vote when you are 21 and you retire when you are 56, how old are you when you find true love? There is no age that is too old or too young to ever find true love.

LUV, HIDA

Artist: Green Day

Song: Boulevard Of Broken Dreams

Album: American Idiot

I walk a lonely road

The only one that I have ever known

Don't know were it goes

But it's home to me and I walk alone

I walk this empty street

On the Boulevard of broken dreams

Were the city sleeps

And I'm the only one and I walk alone

I walk alone I walk alone

I walk alone and I walk a-

My shadows the only one that walks beside me

My shallow hearts the only thing that's beating

Sometimes I wish someone out there will find me

'Till then I'll walk alone

Ah..ah..

I'm walking down the line

That divides me somewhere in my mind

On the border line of the edge

And where I walk alone

Read between the lines

What's fucked up and everything's alright

Check my vital signs to know I'm still alive

And I walk alone

I walk alone

I walk alone

I walk alone and

I walk a-

My shadows the only one that walks beside me

My shallow hearts the only thing that's beating

Sometimes I wish someone out there will find me

'Till then I'll walk alone

Ah..ah..I walk alone

and I walk a-I walk this empty street

On the Boulevard of broken dreams

Were the city sleeps

And I'm the only one

and I walk a-

My shadows the only one that walks beside me

My shallow hearts the only thing that's beating

Sometimes I wish someone out there will find me

'Till then I'll walk alone

Artist: Yellowcard

Song: Only One

Album: Ocean Avenue

Broken this fragile thing now

And I can't, I can't pick up the pieces

And I've thrown my words all around

But I can't, I can't give you a reason

I feel so broken up (so broken up)

And I give up (I give up)

I just want to tell you so you know

Here I go, scream my lungs out and try to get to you

You are my only one

I let go, there's just no one that gets me like you do

You are my only, my only one

Made my mistakes, let you down

And I can't, I can't hold on for too long

Ran my whole life in the ground

And I can't, I can't get up when you're gone

And something's breaking up (breaking up)

I feel like giving up (like giving up)

I won't walk out until you know

Here I go, scream my lungs out and try to get to you

You are my only one

I let go, there's just no one who gets me like you do

You are my only my only one

Here I go so dishonestly

Leave a note for you my only one

And I know you can see right through me

So let me go and you will find someone

Here I go, scream my lungs out and try to get to you

You are my only one

I let go, there's just no one, no one like you

You are my only, my only one

My only one

My only one

My only one

You are my only, my only one

RoB tHoMaS dArLinG..LONELY NO MORE

Now it seems to me

That you know just what to say

But words are only words

Can you show me something else

Can you swear to me

That you'll always be this way

Show me how you feel

More than ever baby

[Chorus:]

I don't wanna be lonely no more

I don't wanna have to pay for this

I don't want another lover at my door

It's just another heartache on my list

I don't wanna be angry no more

You know I could never stand for this

So when you tell me that you love me know for sure

I don't wanna be lonely anymore

Whoa, whoa, ho, oh whoa [2x]

Now it's hard for me

When my heart's still on the mend

Open up to me

Like you do your girlfriends

And you sing to me and it's hardly

Girl what you do to me is everything

Make me say anything just to get you back again

Why can't we just try

[Chorus]

What if I was good to you

What if you were good to me

What if I could hold you till

I feel you move inside of me

What if it was paradise

And what if we were symphonies

What if I give all my life to

Find some way to stand beside you

[Chorus]

Whoa, whoa, ho, oh whoa

Whoa, whoa, ho, oh whoa

(I don't wanna be lonely anymore)

Whoa, whoa, ho, oh whoa

(I don't wanna be lonely no more) [2x]

Whoa, whoa, ho, oh whoa

I don't wanna be lonely anymore

BEAUTIFUL SOUL BY JESSE MCARTNEY

BEAUTIFUL SOUL BY JESSE MCARTNEY

I don't want another pretty face

I don't want just anyone to hold

I don't want my love to go to waste

I want you and your beautiful soul

You're the one I wanna chase

You're the one I wanna hold

I wont let another minute go to waste

I want you and your beautiful soul

I know that you are something special

To you I'd be always faithful

I want to be what you always needed

Then I hope you'll see the heart in me

I don't want another pretty face

I don't want just anyone to hold

I don't want my love to go to waste

I want you and your beautiful soul

You're the one I wanna chase

You're the one I wanna hold

I wont let another minute go to waste

I want you and your beautiful soul

Your beautiful soul, yeah

You might need time to think it over

But im just fine moving forward

I'll ease your mind

If you give me the chance

I will never make you cry c`mon lets try

I don't want another pretty face

I don't want just anyone to hold

I don't want my love to go to waste

I want you and your beautiful soul

You're the one I wanna chase

You're the one I wanna hold

I wont let another minute go to waste

I want you and your beautiful soul

Am I crazy for wanting you

Baby do you think you could want me too

I don't wanna waste your time

Do you see things the way I do

I just wanna know if you feel it too

There is nothing left to hide

I don't want another pretty face

I don't want just anyone to hold

I don't want my love to go to waste

I want you and your beautiful soul

You're the one I wanna chase

You're the one I wanna hold

I wont let another minute go to waste I want you and your beautiful soul

Your beautiful soul, yeah

YOU & ME BY LIFEHOUSE

YOU & ME BY LIFEHOUSE

what day is it

and in what month

this clock never seemed so alive

I can't keep up and I can't back down

I've been losing so much time

cause it's you and me and all of the people

with nothing to do

nothing to lose

and it's you and me and all of the people

and I don't know why

I can't keep my eyes off of you

all of the things that I want to say

just aren't coming out right

I'm tripping inwards

you got my head spinning

I don't know where to go from here

cause it's you and me and all of the people

with nothing to do

nothing to prove

and it's you and me and all of the people

and I don't know why

I can't keep my eyes off of you

there's something about you now

I can't quite figure out

everything she does is beautiful

everything she does is right

you and me and all of the people

with nothing to do

nothing to lose

and it's you and me and all of the people

and I don't know why

I can't keep my eyes off of you

you and me and all of the people

with nothing to do

nothing to prove

and it's you and me and all of the people

and I don't know why

I can't keep my eyes off of you

what day is it

and in what month

this clock never seemed so alive

LET ME GO BY 3 DOORS DOWN

LET ME GO BY 3 DOORS DOWN

One more kiss could be the best thing

Or one more lie could be the worst

And all these thoughts are never resting

And your not something I deserve

CHORUS

In my head there's only you now

This world falls on me

In this world there's real and make believe

And this seems real to me

And you love me but you don't know who I am

I'm torn between this life

I lead and where I stand

And you love me but you don't know who I am

So let me go, let me go

I dream ahead to what I hope for

And I turn my back on loving you

How can this love be a good thing

And I know what I'm going through

CHORUS

In my head there's only you now

This world falls on me

In this world there's real and make believe

And this seems real to me

And you love me but you don't know who I am

I'm torn between this life I lead

and where I stand

And you love me but you don't know who I am

So let me go, just let me go, let me go

And no matter how hard I try

I can't escape these things inside I know, I know

But all the pieces fall apart

You will be the only one who knows,

who knows

You love me but you don't know who I am

I'm torn between this life I lead

and where I stand

And you love me but you don't know who I am

So let me go, just let me go(you don't know)

You love me but you don't

You love me but you don't(you don't know)

You love me but you don't know who I am

(you don't know)

You love me but you don't

You love me but you don't(you don't know)

You love me but you don't know me

DON'T QUIT

When things go wrong,

as there sometimes will,

When the road you are trudging,

seems all up hill,

When the funds are low

and the debts are high,

and you want to smile

but you have to sigh.

When care is pressing

you down a bit,

Rest if you must but

don't you quit.

Life is queer

with it's twist and turn,

As everyone of us

sometimes learn,

and many a failure

turns about,

when he might have worn

had he stuck it out.

Don't give up though

the pace seems slow,

You may have succeed

with another blow.

Success is failure

turned inside out,

The silver tint of

the clouds of doubt,

and you never can tell

how close you are.

It may be near

when it seems so far,

So stick to the five

when you are hardest,

It is when things

seems worse,

THAT YOU MUST NOT QUIT !!

FAVOURITE SONGS

Papa Roach - Scars Lyrics [Chorus:]

I tear my heart open, I sew myself shut

My weakness is that I care too much

My scars remind me that the past is real

I tear my heart open just to feel

Drunk and I'm feeling down

And I just wanna be alone

I'm pissed cause you came around

Why don't you just go home

Cause you channel all your pain

And I can't help you fix yourself

Your making me insane

All I can say is

[Chorus]

I tried to help you once

A kiss will only vise

I saw you going down

But you never realized

That your drowning in the water

So I offered you my hand

Compassions in my nature

Tonight is our last dance

[Chorus]

I'm drunk and I'm feeling down

And I just wanna be alone

You shouldn't ever came around

Why don't you just go home?

Cause your drowning in the water

And I tried to grab your hand

And I left my heart open

But you didn't understand

But you didn't understand

You fix yourself

I can't help you fix yourself

But at least I can say I tried

I'm sorry but I gotta move on with my own life

I can't help you fix yourself

But at least I can say I tried

I'm sorry

but I gotta move on with my own life

[Chorus x2]

Song: Mocking Bird

[ Intro ]

YeahI know sometimes things

might not always make sense to you right now

But hey, what daddy always tell you?

Straighten up little soldier

Stiffen up that upper lip

What'chu crying about?

You got me..

[ Verse 1 ]

Hailie, I know you miss your mom

And I know you miss your dad

when I’m gone

But I’m trying to give you the life that I never had

I can see you’re sad

Even when you smile

Even when you laugh

I can see it in your eyes

Deep inside, you wanna cry

Cuz you’re scaredI ain’t there?

Daddy’s with you in your prayers

No more crying

Wipe them tears

Daddy’s here

No more nightmares

We gonna pull together through it

We gon’ do it

Laini, uncle’s crazy ain’t he?

Yeah but he loves you girl and you better know it

We’re all we got in this world

When it spins When it swirls

When it whirls When it twirls

Two little beautiful girls

Looking puzzled, in a daze

I know it’s confusing you

Daddy’s always on the move

Mama’s always on the news

I try to keep you sheltered from it

But somehow it seems,

the harder that I try to do that

the more it backfires on me

All the things, growing up

As daddy that he had to see

Daddy don’t want you to see

But you see just as much as me (to see?)

That we did not plan it to be this way

You’re mother and me

But things have got so bad between us

I don’t see us ever beingTogether ever again

Like we used to be when was teenagers

But then of coarse

Everything always happens for a reason

I guess it was never meant to be

But it’s just something

We have no control over

And that’s what destiny is

But no more worries

Rest your head and go to sleep

Maybe one day we’ll wake up

And this will all just be a dream

[ Chorus ]

Now hush little baby don’t you cry

Everythings gonna be alright

Stiffen that upper lip up little lady

I told ya, daddy’s here to hold ya

Through the night

I know mommy’s not here right now

and we don’t know why

We feel how we feel inside

It may seem a little crazy, pretty baby

But I promise, Mama’s gonna be alright

[ Verse 2 ]

It’s funny

I remember back one year

when daddy had no money

Mommy wrapped the Christamas presents up

and stuck them under the tree

and said some of them were from me

Cos daddy couldn’t buy ‘em

I’ll never forget that Christmas

I sat up the whole night cryin’

Cuz daddy felt like a bum

See dadday had a job

But his job was to keep the food on the table

for you and mom

And at the time every house that we lived in

Either kept getting broken into

and robbed or shot up on the block

And your mom, was saving money

For you in a jar trying to start a piggy bank for you

So you can go to college

Almost had a thousand dollars

Till someone broke in and stole it

And I know it hurt so bad it broke your mama’s heart

And it seemed like everything was just starting to fall apart

Mom and dads was arguing a lot

So mama moved back on the Chalmers

and the flatOne bedroom apartment

And dad moved back to the other side of 8 mile on Novarra

And that’s when daddy went to California with his CD

And met Dr. Dre and flew you and Mama out to see me

But daddy had to work

You and mama had to leave me

Then you started seeing daddy on the TV

And mama didn’t like it

And you and Laini were too young to understand it

Papa was a rolling stone

mama developed a habit and

it all happened too fast for either one of us to grab it

I’m just sorry you were there and had to witness it first hand

Cuz all I ever wanted to do was just make you proud

Now I’m sittin’ in this empty house, just reminiscin’

Looking at your baby pictures it just trips me out

To see how much you both have grown

It’s almost like your sisters now

Wow, I guess you pretty much are

And daddy’s still here

Laini I’m talking to you too

Daddy’s still hereI like the sound of that, yeah

It’s got a ring to it, don’t it?

Shhh, mama’s only gone for the moment

[ Chorus ]

Now hush little baby don’t you cry

Everythings gonna be alright

Stiffen that upper lip up little lady

I told ya daddy’s here to hold ya

Through the night

I know mommy’s not here right now

and we don’t know why

We feel how we feel inside

It may seem a little crazy pretty baby

But I promise

Mama’s gonna be alright

[ Outro]

And if you ask me to,

Daddy’s gonna buy you a mocking bird

I’ma give you the world

I’ma buy a diamond ring for you

I’ma sing for you,

I’ll do anything for you to see you smile

And if the mockingbird don’t sing

and the ring don’t shine

I’ma break that birdy’s neck

I’ll go back to the Jeweler who sold it to ya

And make him eat every karat

Don’t fuck wit dad.haha