CONFIDENCE TEST

The Confidence Test hida, your confidence level is high As a result, you may tend view yourself as a wonderful, lucky, or energized person. However you probably also have your days when you don't feel so hot. After all, you're only human. Because of your usual high level of self-acceptance and belief in yourself, you're generally open and accepting of others. People who come in contact with you likely appreciate this generous nature and may seek out your company. Your social ability seems to be the trait that you most value in yourself of the five main traits that affect confidence. You also seem to appreciate this characteristic in others.

do i follow my heart or my head?

Heart-Strong Idealist You're an impassioned individual who just can't suppress your ideals. You've got a strong sense of right and wrong, and want to let people know when they've crossed the line. Sure, there are times when you sit back to hear both sides of an argument. But people had better stay out of the way when your fiery passions take hold. But just because you can be a bit of a rebel with a cause, it doesn't mean you're incapable of being understanding and compassionate. It's because you're so invested in your ideas and interests that you can work so tirelessly toward your goals and speak up for what you believe in. So keep pouring your heart into it. With conviction like yours, you're sure to succeed!

sem baru

ni dah masuk hari kelima aku telah menjejakkan kaki di bumi uia ni. and dlm masa lima hari dah bjuta benda aku dah buat. maybe to some others the reopening of sem is something that they are not looking forward to, compared to me who have been staying at home for almost 4 months. i admit, i was also not to keen of coming here, maybe bcoz the thought of repacking n unpacking n cleaning up my room makes me feel a little hesitant to come here.yelah, with all the dust n dirt, mind u i am highly allergic to it(i'll get a terrible flu almost all the time). but to be honest, i am really looking forward to this sem. what more with being in third year, maybe there is a sense of seniority, then with tons of programmes to look forward to, i am ready to study n have fun at the same time too... hope to my dearest friends yg still feeling sad and down, i pray that soon i can share this semester's excitement with all of u. don't feel sad, eh..just let the past go away n enjoy the remaining days that we still have in our lives as we will never know what might come our way. p/s:loving Allah more n more each day.

2ND PART OF ATTACHMENT

okla, ari tu aku dah tulis pasal the first part of my attachment, now i shall continue with the second part. the first day which i thought was the worst day turned out to be one of the best i have had in my life. it started with me being quite late.tak berape clear sgt kepale due 2 sleeping quite late the day b4, so lps subuh, terus sbg tido.ingatkan nak bgn kul 7.30 am tp tbgn 8.20 am n i was supposed 2 be at work at around 8.30 though i was hardly punctual the week b4,hehe. kul 8.30 am baru siap mandi n mar dah call,gelabah gile aku masa tu. dgn tudung tak gosok lg masa tu.ingatkan nak ponteng je rase tp mmikirkan that week we were attached to the ct, i decided against it. so i asked mar not to wait for me. dgn nak cepatnya, gosok tudung pun tah ape2 tah, n breakfast pun tak sempat terus blah. luckily my house is not that far frm ct, only 7 mins.tp tkejut gile bile sampai which was already 8.45 am. sepanjang jln tu penuh gan keta sampai hujung jln, n both sides plak tu.aku pun kena park my car quite far n had 2 walk up all the way to the ct. i arrived exactly at 9 am. i was so scared coz mar dah masuk ct, n i don't know which ct i am assigned to, which means that i have to see tuan.grr..takutnye. pastu gan muka yg amat gelabah, aku pun cepat2 gi bgn civil registry where his room is situated. kat situ,blambak lawyers waiting to submit their docs. i juz couldn't wait coz proceedings are going 2 start at 9am. i was so panicked tp buat cool je. akupun slambe masuk tpt office which is strictly not permitted 4 lawyers(only staff). lawyers only get 2 be the max is at the counter, 2 yg tuan dok ingatkan kat kitaorg supaya take the opportunity now to really go thru the files n doc.(masa masuk tu nampak privilege sgt coz pakai black n white tp dpt masuk, da lawyers were all looking). back 2 my story, tanya kak lia about tuan, tuan lak takde kat bilik. terus aku bgegas gi ct 4 where mar is assigned to.dahla tingkat7, tp hehe, tak naik tangga but lift.then nasib baik ct xstart lg proceedings, so aku pun gi kat mar, ingatkan nak join rupenye seats kat dpn tu dah penuh(seats yg tempatkan jurubahasa),yg uia slalu panggil bailiff.(we'll get back to the terms later).pastu aku pun lgla tak tau nak buat ape. decided nak tgk frm public gallery but then takut nnt tuan marah. skali fate, tetibe nampak tuan br kuar so aku pun kejar die. had 2 explain myself, luckily he was not that angry so die pun attached aku wif mar but when i told the situation, he brought me 2 ct 2(criminal ct). masa tu tak perasan lg judge 4 that ct is datuk ideres rapee(sape yg tak tau, he was the judge yg presided canny ong's case). aku pun slambe je masuk ikut tuan, tak taula plak die nak introduce aku kat judge, actually more of minta izin to follow the proceedings.this comes the BEST PART bcoz he actually invited me to join him in his chambers which i must tell u is VERY2 RARE. tuan dah nak blah tetibe datuk kata "marilah masuk skali, karang org kata saya nak mgurat die plak(refering 2 me)" tuan pun serba salah tp masuk gak pastu datuk kata lg "ala, nak ngurat ape awak ni baya anak saya" sambil gelak. aku pun senyum je. so for the next 15 mins while waiting for some witnesses to come, we had a chat. he asked me questions n i asked him some inquries too. he was very open n friendly(humble n down to earth, i must say),VERY2 HUMBLE N DOWN 2 EARTH N FUNNY TOO!!! best sgt, he shared some of his experience n gave me tons of advice. only god knows how lucky i felt at that moment. dah abis borak, coz kena start proceeding, it was gettin late almost 9.40, so i excused myself frm his chambers with tuan. tuan pun thought that i was very lucky to have had that chance. i really must say that, that experience is very INVALUABLE p/s: anak die sume guys,haha,around my age???twinkle*** sorg blaja kat uitm.anyway about the real term for bailiff(which is widely being used in uia, it's actually jurubahasa or interpreter,n bailiif is actually the ppl who auctions those unwanted exhibits to public). to be continued

entahla

malas betul rasenye nak balik uia..i really don't know why i feel this way. well i guess it's understandable. i mean i've been home for almost four months. i almost forgot how is campus life is. really, i barely can remember.... help me, malasnye nak pack.....

ATTACHMENT

Esok last day aku keja kat shah alam h.ct. tak tau nak rasa ape, rase sedih pun ada, rase lega pun ada. Maybe sbb dah tak larat lagi kot. Kitaorg keja 10 days, many things we have gained there. Tak tcerita smuanya tp nakla share sket experience. Mar pun ada tulis gak dlm blog die pasal our adventure kat sane, sedikit sbyk korg can get the general idea, bacelah blog die, cewah promote lak. Tapi aku pun ade version aku though the environment is the same. 1st DAY kitaorg dtg n tconggok depan civil registry kat shah alam h.ct, bgn sayap kiri pg2 lg.(mcm parti politik plak). Pastu ptemuan sekian lama, mbuahkan hasil iaitu gosip2 tbaru yg hangat di pasaran uia, dah lama tak keep up, hehe. Smua tunggu tuan yg garang, takut nak masuk sampai dpt arahan. Akhirnya, penantian yg ditunggu sekian lama tjadi gak. Malangnya kitaorg tak bwk blazer n xle ditempatkan di ct, so jadik freelance, tgk kes2 frm the public gallery, did not enjoy the experience. Bosan..so gi subang parade nak carik blazer. Muna n kaot balik uia, amik blazer. Mar yg beli, aku tgk je, hehe 2nd DAY aku siap pakai black n white, ala2 gaya lawyer betul with my black long skirt n white blouse, tetibe ct xde prosiding coz ct vacation. Tpaksela keja kat bgn docs n civil registry(processing n fixing). Dahla aku pakai baju black n white, org lain sempoi je pakai baju kurung(staff), so I really look ackward. Even lawyers yg dtg pun asyik tgk je..pastu blur tak tau nak buat ape, mintak kakak kat bgn tu bg keja. Aku pun buat la keja dgn tekunnya, bgn bankrapsi..memule sblm mintak keja, duduk tmenung main phone depan fail2 yg btimbun. Byk betul kes yg ttunggak..abg kat sblh aku tu plak asyik mgacau aku, kalo tak tido, myoal aku mcm2(mcm private investigator plak), tak larat nak layan, kalo tak, die scrutinize ape yg aku pakai n buat, rimas betul la…sambil buat keja, aku ada gak try2 nak baca docs , ikut advice ira tp xphm, yela xblaja lg kan. nak tanya malu sbb smua nampak bz except abg kat sblh aku…kul 4 confident je dah abis keja, ajak mar n kaot gi jumpa tuan, dah kena marah tak baca docs n tanya kat staff. Kitaorg pun balik n try blaja, aku n kaot buat2 baca docs sambil grumbling(we were not informed, blur la kan). Mar dah bz btanya dah… 3rd DAY best sket sbb buat kat atas, power attorney. Dpt kenal gan k.azrah(jurubahasa datuk ideres), k.anem, n abg hashim. Keja xbyk tp cop2la.aku bz betul amik nota n btanya.yela, smlm tak tanya kan so esok tu aku tanyala puas2 sampai kak anem tu irritated coz I asked too much, hehe. Abg hashim asyik suruh aku senyum je, aku pun xphm, buat keja mestila serius kan? Nnt org kata SS, syok sendiri, hehe. aku pun nak jadik budak baikla kan, so kul 4 tu aku turun nak photostate some docs yg nak blaja(takkan nak salin all those agreements)n bla,bla.. tetibe tuan dtg n marah. Muna slambe je, aku yg tkebil2(speechless). Geram betul aku kat tuan, smlm suruh blaja, bile nak blaja nak kena bayar plak siap buat lakonan smula dlm otak, ish..tak baik. Tuan tak garang sbenarnya, maybe aku je yg xphm niat die, confuse sket… 4th DAY ni plg best sbb aku dpt duduk kat tpt call2, mcm receptionist plak, tp tak call pun, hehe. susun docs ikut nom, blaja kes mane yg dipindahkan ke ct ape..etc. Mentor aku, abg amin kena gi meeting, so aku pun mrayapla kacau muna n kaot. Sblm tu nak cite, abg amin tu ckp pun aku xdgr, perlahan gile, kalo cal lawyer suruh amik doc pun slow sgt. aku pun saje je jahat buat2 xdgr, terus volume die on, hehe. last2 mar, aku n kaot gi jln2 tgk ct proceedings with tuan’s permission. Muna xikut coz byk keja. ptg aku nak sambung keja which is call2, tp phone kena amik sbb dieorg nak test internet line(baru nak install). Mine u, the system is still filing n not computerized. Aku pun bosan, sambil borak n bloyar buruk gan abg amin, aku susun fail n cuba mmahami what the ct staffs are going thru’. Take note it is not easy to process all those docs n fulfill the needs of at least 4000 applications per day. N that is only for one department. imagine four?? Mostly laywers are not likeable, no offence but some do come with attitude probs. Taula nak cepat but they(da staff) are working their best n at their optimum level(quoting judge datin paduka zaleha’s words to me n some lawyers).she was explaining some things to lawyers so that they will understand the ct’s prob. Pastu borak gan kat siti, more enlightment about certain lawyer’s rude attitude n blaja kod2 mahkamah n saman pmula n stuff… 5th DAY ingat kena gi tpt civil, tetibe tuan suruh blaja criminal. Aku duduk gan k.lia yg cun wif mar n muna n kaot duduk gan abg khairol a.k.a abg vest, haha. Byk pasal kes criminal n docs. N dapat tgk pics arwah noor suzaily, sedih sgt, I almost cried. Kejam betul si hanafi tu..ARGHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! byk gak kitaorg blaja kat situ, mcm2 kes(baca blog mar), cewah promote lagik..yg tak sanggup baca testi budak india yg nampak arwah masa she was in the bus crying for help. When I read it, I can’t imagine the kid’s feelings. Sure helpless sbb tak dapat tlg n found out that she ended up dead. Ptg gi tgk kes2 kat ct lagik… ……… to be continued

POEM WRITTEN IN FRIENDSTER BULLETIN BOARD

there is nothing more beautiful, than having this friendship that we share, though i am very grateful, the thought of losing u i can't bear. how i cheerish those times n moment, when we would share jokes n laughter, those times i would treasure n put in my heart to remember. we will be friends forever, through the ups and down of life, together we will venture, the true meaning of being alive. here you and me, forever friends we will be, nothing will keep us apart, you are too special in my heart. i will always be there for you, sharing all that u go thru', or even when u feel blue.. we are good friends till whenever, that i will always remember... created personally by: HiDa

dedicated to someone special

together you and me, good friends we used to be, we used to joke, laugh and teased each other, friends till the end forever. but then i made a mistake by giving you a letter, and i cannot take back what i did, no matter. look at what i have gained, nothing but just sheer pain, nothing could change what i've done, weeks have turned into months, just hope that we could restore, the frienship that we had before.

malasnye nak balik uia

actually, i've been moping around the house since march. i really can't imagine how am i going to face a day filled with classes. the very thought of having to wake up early, ironing my clothes n get ready to class has already made me yawning. am i a lazy bum?probably. i mean after all, i am so used to waking up not that early n doing the daily routines which i shall not mention here. god, give me strength to face all my friends, lecturers, the gruelling hours of lectures, the torturing moments of tutorials.arghh... despite that, however i am amazed to say that actually i miss all those activities which means that now i have something to look forward to, such as exams??? n not tv shows???arghhh... p/s: grateful to be a student

american idol? m'sian idol? did they sto the war? IDOL?

talkin once again about american idol, malaysia has also created the exact entertainment show which in now busy touring around malaysia to find those who are interested to be in the show. but once again i was struck by the word idol.is it that easy to be an idol? it may seem clear to everbody that it is the singing competition that will eventually determine whether u are a star or not. but with deeper observation, the words used are something else. it is true that once u win or probably juz be in the top 12,u will have ur own fans n stardom but i wonder why is everybody esp m'sians here are so eager to be the next popstar n to be idolized by their voices instead of their contibutions to the country, the nation, and religion n be a real m'sian idol in the truest sense. p/s: i wonder how come ppl like those uitm students who climbed mount. everest didn't get as much attention as this m'sian idol. see how the west has once again succeeded in making this show into one of the most watched singing competition.when will we have our own original n successful educatonal but yet entertaining shows? i wonder...

copy-cats

skang ni american idol dah habis. dah tau pmenangnye is fantasia barrino. well, i think that she deserves to win. after all her performance was great. talking about american idol, it's funny seeing that now in m'sia, most tv shows are also creating shows somewhat like american idol though in a different version.take for example audition, the really latest copy-cat entertainment show. why are they competing? back to this audition show, it is somewhat a combination of akademi fantasia version n american idol. by showing their routines n practices it is something like akademi fantasia, then the last lowest three must perform b4 being voted off is definitely american idol's version.then raja azura will make this sympathetic voice exactly like aznil in a.f juz to make the audience feel a little emotional.god, can't they have their own identity? well, who am i to judge cause i know out there,there are still many ppl watchin' n enjoying da show, not to forget vote as well. p/s: the acting is quite original though...